Dr Albert Ellis said this:
"no one can ever hurt you by their criticism of you. no matter how vicious or vituperative their criticism, the words they use do not have the power to produce within you the teeniest bit of discomfort. if you are hurt, the problem arises because of the value and meaning you give to the words the person uses. only one person has the power to put you down - you yourself. cruel or unjust criticism hurts because it triggers off in your head idea that are in harmony with the way you see yourself. if you didnt see yourself this way, the criticism would wash over you and fail to affect you."

true? very true.

我觉得人活在这世界最害怕就是怕别人讲，怕别人批评，怕别人是用怎样的眼光看自己。其实，就算别人怎么说，怎么看，只要你自己知道你是怎样的人，坚定你自己的立场，就不会被影响。cos the focus should not be how to be accepted by everyone or how to please everyone. it should not be, cos it's temporal, and even if you win the whole world, you loose yourself, what's the point? criticism will always present. and if we do not know how to handle it, we will found ourselves loosing the real purpose of living.

你就是你，我就是我。love yourself for who you are.

i am super blessed! and i am really very thankful!

thankful that God have always blessed me with so many good friends around me. friends that always wanna bless me, buy me a meal, encourage me, find ways to solve my problems, listen to me and always putting my needs as one of their interest. im just so touch, when someone can even come to me and ask me if they could help me to pay my poly sch fees in this way.

and all that is within me just wanna cry out that God, you are so good!!! so good so good!!!

i have stopped looking for a new job. im not sure is it me that im refusing to change again or i just wonder will i ever find such a gd job that is so flexible in timing, near my hse and high pay? hehex. so, i gonna work 6-5 days per week starting from this week. hopefully, i wont get too bored and sick of work.

Thank God that mummy is feeling better after her first physiotherapy session. im gotta be more discipline to even assist her with her daily shoulder and neck exercises and also bringing her to the fitness corner. 现在就轮到老爸了。i have decided recently that i need to bring him to see his eyes. and i really hope he is willing to go with me. i shld care for him more as he is alr 62 this year. my daddy is so old alr! 我应该更努力一点！and praying hard that i can afford for my dad's medical fees too.

对吗？就是这样！recently something happened, and showed me how real is the fact that life is short and fragile. 人生是如此短暂和虚弱的。我应该好好的利用每一秒钟。yup. one life and it soon be gone, Only what done for Christ will last.


im kinda not looking forward to start of school... 怎么办呢？

went to a food hygiene course on monday. was quite boring and the theory test at the end of the course was so easy!!! multiple choice and the answers are so obvious. but i do hope i can pass practical test. Thank God there is 2 of my colleagues that was there to entertain me. hehex.

was at ECP on tue to cycle with friends. second attempt of the 2 pple bike. which is much more tiring. but i think much more fun. next time i wanna sit behind. hehex.

brought my mum to hospi for her regular appointment. was suppose to see Dr David de, and as usual, he is so busy. he is really a very nice doctor, got a very familiar face that i tot i know him before. i was listening to a old sermon that i have put in my MP4 for the third time. is on provision of God. and trusting God on provision. and when i was walking to the hospi with my mum, i saw this verse!!! yes!! is on a van again!!!
Isaiah 26:12 "Lord, you establish peace for us; all that we have accomplished you have done for us."
i was super shock when i saw the van with that verse. is not that i will happen to see a van with a verse everyday of my life cos the number of van with verse is very less.

anyway i hope i can find a new job soon that can pay me higher pay and im hoping to stay at this job till poly life is over. so it better be a good 1. im really dont wanna stay at kfc anymore. though they plan to promote me. but that will only be a 15cents more to my current pay per hour. is it worth it? what do you think? zzzzz....

alright, will update more soon....

IM BACK!!!

Exams are finally over! and that marks the end of ITE life. The final exams was tough. Hopefully my GPA will not be affected too much. though i really expect that is not gonna be easy. BUT, i still not prepare for it. too bad then.
During the period before exam, really got lots of mixed feeling within me! 烦死了！Almost when crazy. i believe those friends studying with me will know how crazy i am. hehex.

oh man, 2 years had passed. So fast! 2 years ago, i was still in secondary school, worrying about going to ITE. now, is over! im definitely gonna miss school, the pple, all my classmates, friends and teachers.

in this 2 years, i have really learnt and grown alot. lots of up and down, lots of happiness and unhappiness too. life indeed gets tougher and tougher with the increase amount of responsibilities. through ups and downs, we learn how to press on, we learn how to be strong, we learn how to even smile and face reality.

entering into adulthood, is also very 矛盾的事。有时候想要永远不长大。有时候又想要能够做很理性的决定和解决一些很困难的事情。hehex, just wanna escape from reality again. 活在这世界就是需要坚强的面对和接受现实。example, exam result. of course is more than that. JYJY= JINYU JIAYOU!　当我在为自己打气和加油时，我真的很希望我的朋友们也能坚强为自己打气！even if things didn't turn out the way we want. will we not give up and accept and climb back on our feet and look at the brighter side of life.

all i can do now, is to wait for the "day" which is 2 weeks later, that will determine my life for the next 3 years to come. when the "day" gets near, hope i will not get too stress about it. and there goes the crazy me. Wahahaha!!!