CNY wasnt one of my favorite season or public holiday. maybe to me now, CNY means work more than meaning of family gathering together sitting at the table for a good meal and bonding or just purely joy of eating the CNY tibits and food. only the collecting of hong bao is fun. the rest of the whole visitation was bored. watch tv, eat, watch tv. it really depends on which house you went to visit.

from the year my family becomes incomplete, i felt CNY have lost its meaning. till a point that i think reunion dinner wasnt necessary anymore. i miss him, so near yet so far.

so many pple in this world focus on what is immediate and what happens now. many of our footsteps dont just stop there bcos is a new yr season. what's more this yr CNY is not going to be the same with exam coming 3 weeks after CNY. what a tough poly life. though that not the toughest thing in life,

I love Christmas more. feels that there is more meaning to Christmas than to CNY.

pure random.....

I kind of fell in love with this song again...
Reminds me of how much God actually Love me....
How many times i had fail God.. how many times i tried to hide away from God... how many times that i cant explain why certain things happen in my life... how many times that i felt im all alone to handle this world that i need to bear...

I know Your Love never fails....

Oh God.....!!!

start of new year and new term.
although sch have just started for 2 weeks, but in 6 weeks time will be exam. kind of crazy. still prefer last semester that we have 3 weeks of break to study. thanks to YOG. if only YOG can happen every year in Singapore.


I'm getting older!!!
of course felt more responsible, accounting for my own action.
not only that, i felt i need more privacy. i need a bigger house, a room to myself, my own wardrobe, my own bathroom, my own little space and little world. who don't love to live in their own world with the freedom of doing anything you want to without being watched. that require a lot of self discipline too, if i have my own room.


i used to always crave to have a new phone, but in the end i didn't buy myself one, cos i know is a want, not a need. i think i seriously need a room to myself. is not a want, is a NEED! and of course, i cant trust anyone with this task other than myself. i really dislike pple keep touching my things and keep asking me what i am doing. which i may get affected easily. I know you care for me, but please give me some space....


But coming back to what i really need in life, wasn't really just a room. does that mean that i become distracted. as my ambitious and burdens gets heavier, who to blame? the yolk that God give me was light. i will never get to where i want to be if i hold on to so much things.


though I'm getting older, but it doesn't stop me. i still cry when i need to. laugh as loud if is very funny. get angry and impatience with certain things. Will still push myself forward. and that just me....
and definitely will still seek God and need Him more than usual...

Labels: living each day to the fullest, WAKE UP, 人生短短几十年