went street e today. never got a chance to partner pc. expected. LOL. we want so badly to partner each other but caijie purposely separate us. he said only when pc says 1day that she don want to partner me then he will put us together. end up partner with Winnie and Benjamin. we 3 people abit scary to approach pple. so we separated but keep watch of each other. and today aljunied mrt is really unusual. think due to the o level exam period bah. i can hardly find any pple around my age grp. and most of the pple we approached give us responds like" sorry not free" " I'm in a hurry." worst are those no matter how hard i tried, look also don look at me. i was wondering... just a few minutes of your time only. why cant spare me? i don see any harm.

so, even till the last minute, i cant find 1 person to share to, i was like" no!!! i must at least share to 1 today!" keep praying that God can give me open doors, and lead me to the person that He wants me to speak to. and yes, door open. finally! Ben found that person, so i was helping him. and this one and only person is really enough. he got saved. we prayed! yeah!!!! i can see that excitement in Ben. the joy of sharing the gospel is something that you really have to experience.

and i didn't know that Winnie got salvation too. yes! there was a total of 3 salvation today. praise God! I'm sure the angles are rejoicing in heaven. leading someone to Christ is 1 thing. following up with the person is another thing. and i think this part is tougher than the first part. and this is where i cant depend on my own strength to do. or not i really will be very broken.

caijie said the notice board must change abit here and there. not really abit. quite a big bit. after i heard what he said, i almost faint. LOL. cos is going to be alot of work. n he wants me to write a testimony. faint x2. suddenly feels so busy again.

rushed off to EH for Elene and victor's wedding. that my first time attending a wedding. amazed. next time if i really got married, my wedding's message that the pastor going to share, no matter what must have gospel message and sinners' prayer. this is call one stone kill two birds. Elene is so happy. feel very happy for her too. i wonder what kind of person will God prepare for me. but now i just cant help but feel disgust abdt BGR. sorry if offend any1.

rushed off to work. thank God. not so busy. i really really need God's help to teach me how to love and accept this person at work. i cant help but dislike her. maybe bcos she can slack and i cant. and the way that she always thinks she is somebody. i really want to love her. but somewhere some part of me is not willing.

recently i feel that I'm not like myself. feel that i have change to another me. which i really don like. and started to wonder where have i gone. den realise that I'm still up there in the clouds. is time for me to be back and face the reality. n i really believe that this is a season of change God had for me. something must be done for me to move on. i really pray that i can get pass this season and move on. i know nothing is impossible for God. but something is really i need to help myself before God can help me. just like making a decision. jia you!


i love this songs. cos its always remind me of God and His timing. His perfect timing.



Sometimes I wonder what lies ahead
How long till my hunger is fed
They say it's hard to make it in this part of town
So many people on this merry-go-round

Some folks try astrology
Some turn to crystal balls
To find an answer,
To get through it all
I just fall on my knees and
I try to pray
In the silence I can hear Him say

The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign
Everything in its time

I often feel like I'm two steps behind
Somebody must have moved that finish line
There are a thousand reasons
Why I should give up
But I'm stubborn in the things I believe

The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign

'cause maybe there's another plan
One I still can't see
A little surprise, like your love in my life
Funny how time changes how we see

The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign
Everything in its time
Everything in its time









have you found where you are?

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i cant believe it. left only 1 day. which is today then sch reopen le. this hoilday i really never get any recharge of battery from it.. instead battery got weaker. but, it is really a full of activities de hoildays. and yes, o level english is so near after sch start. i cant imagine.


feel abit nerovous towards the new sem. wonder what will happen as new term start. may this new term be a start of new of all things, new life.


last sunday, went to celebrate aaron's birthday at waraku.

happy birthday! guess his age if u can.

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上 个 星 期 ， 我 终 于 终 于 可 以 说 ：” 我 不 是 很 忙 ！ ！ ！ “ 但 是 过 得 很 fulfilling. 完 全 利 用 我 所 有 的 时 间 。 但 却 又 好 像 发 生 好 多 好 多 的 事 。 好 像 做 了 好 多 好 多 的 事 。

just that Monday was studying, Tuesday and Wednesday worked full shift, Thursday went to impact's chalet, Friday just came back from chalet, study, Saturday, fish4men and work and Sunday, the best, church and Aaron's birthday celebration cum cell outing.

now i cant say that i don really have a holiday. cos i really had a lot fun in the chalet and cell outing. good method of distressing.

And, holidays is ending soon. in 6 days time, will be back to sch. walking that same path, taking that same bus. doing the same things, falling asleep in the bus. honestly i really not looking forward to this new sem. cos of the pack schedule. 4 days class is at 8am. and i think 2 out of the 4 days, i maybe late for class. and 3 days lesson end at 5pm. but, 实 终 还 是 要 习 惯 它 的 。 this i noe very clearly. but i just feel to complaint for awhile. plus, new sem going to change CA and meeting new teachers. i donnoe what kind of challenge is lying ahead. i really don wish holiday to end so fast. cos i noe once sch start is the beginning of new stress and problems. i just want to escape from all these just for awhile more. at least till my o level finish. can this be done? and result of the previous 2 modules is out too. although it didn't turn out to be what i expect, i want to thank God. for seeing me thru this exam, first exam taken in this new sch, new environment. and i want to be grateful and satisfy with the things that You gave me. thank You!!!

work on Tues and Wed was really super crazy as usual. 1 is PH eve and another is PH. kfc is flooded with people. especially with that location and is Malays' new year. but to my surprise, PH eve, the last day of fasting, customer from morning till evening is mostly malays. that weird. aunty and i really agree that is really super strange. and PH was double the crazy of PH eve. from 9.25am, there are already pple waiting outside to come in and buy food. feel like telling them that we actually open at 10am and please that banquet next to kfc, you can always choose dat to kfc rite? so, when we open stall not more than 15 mins, customers had already Q till the door. and this crowd didn't stop at all. all the way till 9plus pm then stop. and you know what, all the customer mostly are maids or worker form Philippines. expected, the same familiar crowd. i was super tired, stand 30 hours for 2 days. my feet hurt so badly, especially the heels. I'm getting old. I'm quiting my job soon. i really donnoe how to tell my manager. i really want to find a less work load and responsible job and reasonable pay. as my main focus is not on work. i donnoe how to tell Danny. cos i know they are still lack of staff. that why many staff have to do full shift almost everyday. 我 开 不 了 口 。 how ?

6days of impact programme ended with a chalet at aloha Loyang. thru this programme i really make alot of new friends, christian friends that are from ITE. and also learn that i really still got alot alot of things that i do not know of God. unless i walk closely with Him and He will reveal to me more of Him. and here is overall of what we did during this 6 days programme.



we did night cycling. just in pasi ris park. that night was really a beautiful night, cos it looks like it going to rain. so the sky was pinkish. and the view of the sea was soothing too. although it seems like its going to rain. we actually saw the Orion. very very nice. cycling was not really something that I'm good at. from my experience, each time i cycle, i confirm will fall down 1 time. LOL. but thank God. nv fall down this time. to me, cycling is like street e. the more you practise, the more you get a hand of it. but i really hardly cycle. to me, cycling is like a christian life. you must focus on which direction you want to go. and control the bike. nobody cycle with their eyes close. and the scenery when you are cycling maybe so beautiful. and when you stop cycling, you will feel very hot. similarly, one christian life must always fixed their eyes on God and know direction where He wants you to go in order to keep on moving. there are alot of attractive things in this world that will tempt us and distract us from focusing on our goals and God. if we don resist, we may soon fall astray and cant see our goals, cant see where God is in our life. when we actually decided to stop this journey, journey of continue following our goals, God is no longer our focus, the centre and priority of life. that where one life begin to collapse. .... OK that what i think.

believing in Christ is one thing, following Him is another thing. you can choose to believe in Him but yet not follow Him.

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