thank God!!! cos today LLA lesson have been cancel!!! yeah!! that means school will end at 12pm. and today don have tuition!!! yeah!!! can stay at home le!!!


guess what we did for IC practical??? we played board game. at first i think this is super wasting time and i want 2 do experiment instead. but got no choice must play the game. is like monopoly, but instead of houses, it is all element. and Michelle won the game by having the most number of protons, 795 protons. and i only got 235 protons. and Chris laugh until his mouth want 2 裂了when he got so many protons. he got a total of 750 protons. but still loose 2 Michelle. Michelle is so lucky can.. she won the fund for 2times lor. and when my Chance 2 win, there is no money in the fund.


eeyore n lexandra called me 2 go watch movie with them. but, hehex.. i don want watch that movie that they are watching. i want 2 watch accuracy of death!!! but i don think got chance. haix... there goes another movie that i want 2 watch but don have chance 2 watch.


i went 2 bedok mrt 2 top up my mum and mine 的 ez link. that ticket office officer is really super attitude. i talk 2 her she don even look or respond 2 me. like never hear me like that. but I'm not invisible lehx.if only i am. but I'm not. she got eye sight problem? or she actually got hearing problem? can not even smile at me mah? grr... why must she spoilt my mood when she herself is unhappy with her work? shitty!!!


my skin is super super tan. and hope it wont get more tan. or not my dad will keep telling me that i look like a Malay and im pick up from the rubbish bin again, again, again , again and again. but really cant help it, i got swimming lesson once a week.


my table is still not clear......

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i would like to start today post by praising and thanking God for what ever that have happen today, yesterday or tomorrow or the soon to come. He deserve all praise!!! thank you lord for everything that had already happened and will soon happen.


this is what happened yesterday...

it is my first practical assignment. and i really donnoe what is the different between practical assignment and phase test. is like the same 的 lorx. waited super long to go in to the lad. cos is like 4 at a time go in. then the next 4 must wait like 4 5mins plus den can go in. before i went in i already know the test is on liquid-liquid extraction(thanks 2 Nicole). at first, i was quite confident cos i tot it will be very easy. indeed, it is very easy. but nervous had took control of me. you see, i never use a fume hood before( i mean 2 carry out the experiment using fume hood alone without any guidance). cos the 2 practical lesson we have on it, teacher is there 2 assist us. and i, don even have the chance 2 do that experiment due to insufficient time and fume hood. i only know how it feels like 2 shake the separating funnel that contain RO water. and i think my brain got wire disconnected when I'm in the lad. i actually did things that i cant imagine i did it.


first, i forget that less dense float and denser sink. what's wrong with me? i really donnoe why i made this mistake. which is like so common sense. so disappointed with myself. and this have cos me 2 lost a lot of marks. the question paper showed so clearly that hexane is 0.66g/ml. and water is 1.0g/ml. so what solvent is at the bottom of the funnel? isn't is obvious? my brain got wire disconnected...


second, i forget 2 rinse the separating funnel before i start pouring the solvent in. so minus mark.


third, i forget 2 observe before shaking the separating funnel. so i any how write what i think is correct for the "before observation" question on the paper.minus mark. (but really hope what i wrote is correct)


fourth, i forget 2 open the cap when i want 2 drain the solvent out of the separating funnel after shaking. minus mark.


fifth, there is this question, we must show teacher the solvent that is more contaminated after separation. and the answer is of course the hexane is more contaminated with solute now. but, you know i forget about the density part. so i tot the solvent at the bottom of the funnel is hexane but it is actually water. so i show teacher that "hexane". minus mark again.


lastly, i really donnoe which bottle 2 pour the waste in. got 3 bottles. one is acidic, another is alkaline and last is solvent. i was wondering what, what solvent? should i pour in 2 this bottle? but i remember hexane is alkaline hydrocarbon. so i took the alkaline bottle and decide 2 pour before teacher stopped me and point 2 the correct bottle. minus mark again.


although i quite confident that the 3 question that is on the question paper, i will answer correctly.( cos i spent 2 hours memorising ). but i know it will still be hard 2 pass. haix.... i cant accept that i actually made so many mistakes. although i know no matter how much effort i put in, 都不会是完美的。但是，我不会因为这样而就不再努力。反而， 我会想要证明给自己是可以。


after that, went 2 hospital with mum. appointment with doctor at 2.30. i tot we will be making our way home by 3pm. cos i tot only like see the doctor den go back. but is not. my mum she going 2 remove stitches today also. and then the Q was like super long. while waiting, my whole mind only got this word" hungry". i didn't eat breakfast in the morning at rushed down 2 hospital right after test. so my whole mind was like going "hungry hungry..."after that still have 2 go collect medicne. and then must go settle some bills, medisave stuff. so I'm super super late for work. i suppose 2 report 2 work at5 pm. but only reach at 6.15pm.


lucky my new boss is not on shift. hahax. the sprain in my left wrist got worst went i forget about it when i tried 2 push the handle up from the bun toaster." ouch!!!" ya.. i was like ouch ouch all the way till i successfully push the handle over. but i went and do cashier at about 8.30 due to not enough staff. opening the flags with my left hand arches my wrist too. should i really go and see a doctor? what will the doctor say 2 me? call me 2 rest my wrist? how? my work require me to carry heavy stuff. forget about it then. heard from Li said that my new boss will be on shift at night next Monday. at first, i tot i shouldn't work next Monday. but then, is like i never work with him before. so why not take this challenge and see how and what type of person he really is. so... 来吧！！！there is like so many left over that day!! rejoice!!! can bring home. but how come none of my friends want 2 eat chicken at all.asked hui and may, both don wan. of course, i end up giving LH.


my mum next appointment is in 2 weeks time. guess which date is it.....

is on 9jun. and i will not be around. how? called my bro, he said he is always not free on Monday 的. then how? the doctor wants 2 see my mum in 2 weeks time. i can change the appointment date 吗? is it very selfish of me, becos i want 2 go 2 church camp and then change the appointment date? if my bro found out about it, i think will chaos again. how??? how???


what if IC phase test is fall on the dates between 9-11jun? can i tell the teacher said that i cant turn up 4 the test becos I'll be away??? so i have 2 retake? but retake isn't the maximum marks you will get is only 50? what will the teacher and the rest think about me? someone that don take study seriously? how???


如果我会分身术就好。if only i can be in so many places at one time.

so many thing clashes together.

archery clashes with fish4men

guitar course clashes with crystal growing

mum's appointment clashes with camp

mum's appointment clashes with school

mum's appointment clashes with work



does this show that i really donnoe how 2 organise my time?? yup i think so....



anyway, i have a God that can make impossible possible. maybe I'm not possible 2 have 分身术。 but at least i must believe that He can provide me a way out 2 go church camp. what i can only do now is only pray, pray and pray.






and today......



first lesson is swimming, the coach called led us 2 go down in the pool which is at the 2m deep side. shock at first. he called us 2 tried and touch the floor and while our hands holds on 2 the wall. me... shock again when he called us to jump deep in and jump up 2 the surface. of course, 2m deep. i never tried before. so i was scare. but after a few time, got confidence with it after a few tries. not so scary after all. the coach only release us at 10.50am and the lesson after that was at 11am. so really don have time 2 bath. everybody bath shortcut and rush out of the at about 11.10 still late. but lucky the door have not close yet when we go up 2 the LT.



lesson was like very hard 2 understand. so i fall asleep half way(again). school ends at 1pm today. yeah!! and I'm not working today. finally got the chance 2 go back home early. but before that i went 2 cdac 2 collect a "ready 4 school "pack. they call me 2 go down 的. or not i wont go down.


reach there. donnoe where 2 go. went 2 this department and they called me 2 go 2 another department called the volunteer and social department. and they called me 2 go 2 the education department. when i reach there, they said i should go 2 the volunteer and social department. i was like huhx??? i tot i just came up from there? i suddenly feel like I'm like a ball that is pushed from one place 2 another place. went down there and finally is the right place.


i really need 2 clear my table asap so that i cant start studying for my o level. i really must!!! but i really donnoe where should i place all my stuff or where should i start from.... so messy..... how? i see my table so messy i got no mood 2 study already. need 2 get it done soon.....



and the end.....



hui i miss you..... really..... hope everything is going ok 4 u.......


wow!! this is my longest post ever!!!

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this is some random photos. in case some pple say my blog is super boring and plain without pictures...
me and Michelle(my clique in school) in cafe2. Michelle u are really so nice. and i really love you!!!!

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it had been so long since i last update a blog. although is like only a few days. but during these few days, lots of things happened. happy things and unhappy things. should i list out one by one??? i think it will be super boring and wasting time.



OK.. but the most happy thing that happened this week is that my mum, is finally discharge on Thursday!!! yeah!!! don have 2 make alot of trips 2 the hospital everyday 了. is really tiring 2 travel till the hospital when the journey there actually take nearly an hour. thus, i always find myself falling asleep half way through the journey.



and 1 super unhappy thing that happened on Friday was that matter... what matter?? i got scold from my brother. and each words that came out from his mouth are like words with sharp thorns that hurt so much. although i know what he said is just out of anger. but it really hurts. i just hope that i can do things so perfect without any mistake. but i cant. and he had successfully makes me feel very bad for what i had neglected. I'm very sorry if i let you all worried, if you had seen me suddenly bursting into tears in the mid of having our lunch. but I'm really fine now. it will be really super long 2 describe what really happened. so i think, 4 get it then. want 2 know then ask me.



so happy 2 see 肥肥 every time i reach home. she will run like crazy. so happy 2 see me. and I'm really sorry 2 her. cos recently I'm just busy with my mum stuff, in and out of the hospital that i really don have time 2 play with her. she loves 2 come 2 me giving me one of her paw. ask me 2 rub her stomach. or give her a hug. really love her so much. if only she looks like cj7 too... i will be really crazy.



went 2 work at 4pm. met the new RM. his name is Danny. at first i really donnoe who he is. i tot is another training manager. but is not after he start asking me about how much is my pay. i told him that I'm studying in ite. and he said that ite student are better than poly student. cos poly grad still very hard 2 find a job outside. compare 2 ite student that got the skills. and he said he likes ite students. somehow i doubts what he said. and of course the pearlyn was here too. work really got tougher and stressful with them around. lucky Lina is around. i really going2 miss her. cos next week were be her last day working. super sad. as usual, we did very lame stuff. i told her that I'm really lazy 2 sweep the floor. and i don think is a need as 5 mins more the shop will be close. then she said she will sweep. so she insist in sweeping. of course it will take like 5mins 2 sweep. but she said she only need 1 min 2 sweep. and there goes. hahax. i timed her. but mission fail. me, lame too, also tried 2 sweep the floor as clean as possible in 1min time. mission fail too.

my旧病 have 回来了. my left wrist started 2 feel painful again. last year i sprained my left wrist after a session of dragon boat, and it took like so long 2 be OK only early this year. but the pain return back. now my right elbow also starts 2 hurt when i carry my shoulder bag(maybe my bag is really very heavy). and my right knees hurts too (last time i always feel this pain when the weather is cold). me.... although only 17 going 18. but my body since 2 be super old then my present age. oh no!! I'm really old. after finding a white hair that day, this is another sign.



Monday, will have practical test, and I'm not prepare. and Monday i have 2 bring my mum 4 appointment. looks like I'm going 2 miss another lesson of AC. looks like i will miss alot of lesson too when i leave 4 church camp. i start 2 wonder..... when will i ever get 2 catch up with the lesson........

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do you agree? cant you image a person actually spent about one quarter of his life sleeping? imagine what i can do with all these time ??? but, 1 sad facts. we are designed in a way that we need sleep and rest. so no matter how hard i tried not sleeping, still have 2 sleep.

the kind of feeling you will get when you are lack of sleep is really a torture. my head gets so heavy and giddy and got a feeling of like stuck in something in my head . or not my eyelids will get so heavy that it cant stand 2 open 4 even 1 second long. den my whole body will be so heavy. haix... cannot help it. must sleep arhx...

if only there is something that can power us up when we eat it. and den we wont feel tired and sleepy at all le. then we can use the time 2 do stuffs that we can be more effective in any aspect of our life.

I'm really lack of time 2 do a lot of things. (including sleeping) and this lack of time and things that is going on now is really making me stress up.

mum just go 4 op.when i told her that she wont be discharge by today, she grumbler. complain 2 me that she cant sleep, is very hot, is very noisy. and call me 2 call the doctor 2 let her go home. but.. this is really something that i cant help or control arhx. what does she wants me 2 do? but after i told her is better 2 recover fully then go back then 2 come back again. so she didn't say much after that le.

my sister, complaints 2 me about her job. she cant understand why is she need 2 do all the job whereas that gal that is working together with her cant do it. why leaving it all 2 her. i really donnoe why i get my sister 2 work with me in the same place. sort of like i bring her 2 hell. cos i know clearly stress there is really unbearable. maybe she should plan of quiting this job too le.

super not enough time. now i have 2 go down 2 see and take care of mum everyday till she discharge. and then i still need 2 work. and then i need 2 study 4 my test that is coming so soon and my o level. and then i need 2 go tuition and finish the homework teacher give. and then i got cca, i got Crystal growing thingy, and then i got friends coming 2 me and ask me 2 join the same cca as them. is really makes me 一个头两个大! lucky i haven burst yet.

recently that is this part time rider at my work place(his full time job actually is a fire and rescue specialist). he is really a very nice person. so that day he asked me." how come the older you get the more moody you are?" so i answer him saying that the older i get the more responsible i got the more responsible i got, the more pressure i got. the more pressure i got, the more stress i am. the more stress i am, the more emo i get. and that why i always get so emo especially when i go 2 work. so many things 2 do, so little pay. and they(manager) don appreciate what i do. and then he said that i should try 2 get out of this stress and not let it consume me. ya i know. his right. but the problem is, the only way i know that can actually kill my stress is 2 eat. eat and eat. i haven discover other ways yet. but of course the most effective way is 2 just get me out of this stress and go far far away from this place that i live. best is to go heaven. no stress, no grief. only got joy.

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recently, I'm sure everybody will know about the 2 disaster that just happened not long ago. the sze chuan earthquake and Myanmar 的风灾。

it is really heart arching 2 see pple die becos of what mother nature had done. and i really donnoe understand why there is still war going on killing each other. whereas sze chuan and Myanmar tries their best 2 survive. how i hope war can just stop. stop all killing!!!

it is really extremely heart arching 2 see how those parents that cried as they have lost their children in the earthquake. some are buried alive and some are lucky enough 2 be saved. there is this photo that i saw, a little gal, although she is dead already, when her body was carried out, her hand are still firmly holding on 2 her pen. another was the gal that was finally able 2 escape out from all the rubble on her 20 or 21 birthday. and the pple that rescue her out sang her a birthday song. my heart really arches 2 the limit. there is this guy that was trapped 4 100hours and still survive. he actually ate cigarettes and paper napkins and drink his own urine out of his shoe 2 stay alive. what can a person not do 2 fight 2 survive??? there is another article that say that their school was actually a newest building at the town, but it collapse. whereas the older building never collapse. so is this really something that we must blame mother nature completely??? is still a question mark. and i just don understand why Myanmar government don wants 2 take in more help that is offer by other countries. hut willing 2 see more pple die.

患难见真情！！！ so many pple volunteer 2 help up in the rescue work although they have no knowledge of first aid. although they know the danger of it. we are really so lucky 2 live in Singapore. we are so lucky!!! thank God for everything!!! i believe those that are alive, have a purpose for being alive. God have plans.

but all the disaster just showed that the end time are coming very very soon. and are we all prepare 4 this time??? it just another beginning after it really ends.


cant imagine what happened on sze chuan happen on me. is like just a normal day. i go 2 school as usual. but all of the sudden, school collapsed. teacher was gone, student was gone. the next thing was 2 wait 2 be rescue out. and what will happen after that was really really a big big question mark.

but, God really loves his pple no matter what......

pls help 2 do something 2 help them. as simple as putting a rainbow in front of your nick in msn.
http://info.msn.com.cn/caihong/rainbow.html

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this is what happened on Friday.......


woke up at 6.30am 2 bring my mum 2 the hospital. reach there, the nurse asked us how come we will so early. i thought we actually should be late already.cos it is stated that we should report at 7am. but we reached st 7plus near 8am. then i realise the surgery was actually pushed back. and i actually donnoe. the nurse call us 2 come back at about 11. the surgery will only be at 12pm. so my mum and i went downstairs, cos i want 2 eat breakfast. i know i actually shouldn't eat de. cos my mum is fasting 4 the surgery. aiya.. but i still end up eating. we return back 2 the ward at 9plus near 10. waited till 12pm, the nurse call us in and prepared my mum 4 the surgery. as i watch the nurse push the bed slowly 2 the op theater.. not a bit of worried at all.somehow i just feel peace inside.... so she went in about 12 plus and i went home. cos the surgery will take about 4 hours and she still have 2 stay in the recovery room 4 2 hours.


i came back 2 the hospital at 6pm with my dad. expecting her 2 be out at around 7pm. but we waited and waited, she's not out yet. my dad says that is too late 2 stay. so he went back home and called me 2 call him when my mum is out. so... i waited and waited. i watch the lift from level 2 comes up 2 level 7 and waited 4 the lift door 2 open. hoping that it was my mum that was pushed out from the lift. but is not. finally, i saw the lift's door open and the nurse pushed a bed out of the lift. it must be my mum i tot. there is 2 groups of family waiting at the waiting area too. one group stood up and see that bed that is pushed out too. and i saw another person on the bed instead of my mum. my heart sink real deep down. disappointed...


and is 8plus already. so i went 2 the nurse again and asked her when my mum will be out. and she said she will only be out at 9plus. so that means i have 2 wait 4 another hour. i stood at the waiting area. the two family that each consist about 10 members occupied all the seats in the waiting area. seeing one of the family chit chatting happily. how i hope there is also a group of pple with me, waiting 4 my mum 2 be out. but actually you know what, these two group of family, the family member that they are waiting for are already out from the recovery room. i really donnoe why they are waiting 4 what? maybe waiting 4 the doctor 2 come.(but it is really going 2 be very late the doctor then will come, heard the nurse said). so they were will like having their own gathering there. and i, really really feel very lonely. how i hope at least someone could call me and talk 2 me but i receive zero phone calls. i started 2 worried why my mum actually took so long 2 come out. but i really cant do anything. i cant focus 2 read the book that i brought alone with me. and then about 9plus, 1group of the family left, and finally can sit down(yeah).


finally at 10pm, she's out. saw the nurse slowly pushed the bed out from the lift 2 the high dependency unit. after the nurse had settle her down and i finally can see her!!! saw her stitches on her neck down 2 her shoulder, my heart arches. i really cant bear 2 see her bearing that pain. tears sting my eyes, i blinked it away in case she get more worried. feel so mush 2 comfort her form her pain. but i know words wont worked much( esp. when i really not good in hokkien). stayed with her 4 about half an hour, comforting her that she will be out of the hospital soon on Monday and the next week the stitches will be removed. is getting quite late. so i left her 2 rest.feel so much 2 cry. but it is just stuck in my throat, cant swallow it down too. lucky my journey back home have hui and eeyore on the phone with me. or not i think i will be.......... you know what bah.. don need me 2 mention.......


thank God the surgery was a success. thank God 4 my mum's life. thank God...

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i really really super like this song. it got lots of meaning in it.



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CT7x3VnrqbA



PS: i tried to put this clip on my blog, but not successful. so click on and listen k.





Casting Crowns - Who Am I Lyrics


Who am I?

That the Lord of all the earth,

Would care to know my name,

Would care to feel my hurt.



Who am I?

That the bright and morning star,

Would choose to light the way,

For my ever wondering heart.



Not because of who I am.

But because of what you've done.

Not because of what I've done.

But because of who you are.



Chorus:

I am a flower quickly fading,

Here today and gone tomorrow.

A wave tossed in the ocean,

A vapor in the wind.

Still you hear me when I'm calling,

Lord you catch me when I'm falling,

And you told me who I am.

I am yours.

I am yours.



Who am I?

That the eyes that see my sin

Would look on me with love

And watch me rise again



Who am I?

That the voice that calm the sea,

Would call out through the rain,

And calm the storm in me.



Not because of who I am.

But because what of you've done.

Not because of what I've done.

But because of who you are.



Chorus:



I am a flower quickly fading,

Here today and gone tomorrow.

A wave tossed in the ocean,

A vapor in the wind.

Still you hear me when I'm calling,

Lord you catch me when I'm falling,

And you told me who I am.

I am yours.



Not because of who I am.

But because of what you've done.

Not because of what I've done.

But because of who you are.



Chorus:



I am a flower quickly fading,

Here today and gone tomorrow.

A wave tossed in the ocean,

A vapor in the wind.

Still you hear me when I'm calling,

Lord you catch me when I'm falling,

You told me who I am.

I am yours.

I am yours.



Whom shall I fear?

Whom shall I fear? '

Cuz I am yours.

I am yours.









most of the time when i feel very emo, this song were always appear in my mind. and the meaning of the lyrics.


when i feel lost and confused, when i again and and again asked my self what am i doing. when i feel unwanted, when i feel every responsible that i holds gets too heavy and collapsing down and pushing me 2 just one corner of life. whenever i feel like giving up, whenever i think the only way out is just 2 disappear from this world.... this song just speaks to me....


"who am i? that the lord of all the earth, would care to know my name, would care to feel my hurt.........." maybe nobody really cares how i feel, or even understand, at least i know, HE knows everything.


" i am a flower quickly fading, here today and gone tomorrow. a wave tossed in the ocean........ still you here me when i calling, you catch me when I'm falling, and tell me who i am, i am yours........" 人的生命如此的脆弱又短暂。even though our life are weak and short, but HE still cares and love us...


"not becos of who i am, but becos of what you done, not becos of what i done, but becos of who you are..." who we think we are and what we did, it doesn't matter much. becos of who HE is( HE is the creator of everything) and what he done matters the most.( dying for us so that we can draw near 2 him again.....)

"whom shall i fear ......." this part just encourage me to press on.......


he is the author and the finisher of our faith(Hebrew 12: 2) he enables us to finish what he made it possible for us to begin. he will not forget us even though we forget him, and he will give us reminder on the way. when our eyes are focused on our future in heaven then one of the consequences is that the material things which so many crave have little appeal for us. (quoted from EDWJ)


" the world is not my home,
I'm just passing through.
my treasure are laid up
somewhere beyond the blue.
the angels beckon me from
heaven's open door,
and i cant feel at home
in this world anymore."
(quoted from EDWJ)


i really cant fell at home in this world anymore. i always wonder whether my room in heaven that God had prepare 4 me is it ready yet. feel so much to return to my real home. and really donnoe when my journey that lead me to my home will ends. but at least, i know at the end of the road, Jesus will be there waiting for me......

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bus was super late today can? waited so long 4 it. saw hui min in the bus too. she later tell me that the bus was trap in ang mo kio 4 like more than half an hour. so this is the reason why i wait super long today 4 the bus. saw one guy that dress up exactly like L. white long sleeves shirts with black pants. but appearance no where near L at all.


today practical was quite fun(i think the only fun part 4 me now in school is during practical bah , really cannot understand a single thing in LT). we did 3 experiments and 1 experiment demonstrated by the LT. so the last experiment, groups take turn 2 go 2 the class next door 2 see teacher do that experiment that require the use of fume hood. so there is no teacher in the lab. hahax. we graded this chance 2 take photos. hehex. i will upload it up soon when Michelle send it 2 me. and we did take a photo with Chris sleeping and the rest posing behind.(hehex we are so bad.)


and then Chris was abit emo, start staring outside the window at the heavy rain outside. tried 2 cheer him up, but failed. everyone in the class was quite shocked 2 see what he was doing staring outside. hey, chris, we are all worried and concern 4 you!!!!


after that was LLA lesson, today LLA lesson was super boring that i actually fell asleep. that teacher never fail 2 show us video clips every lesson. and i was totally disturbed by what she show us today. is about how pple in the world peeled animals alive 2 get their skins to make leather, wool and fur. I'm just so gross out!!! there a total of 3 clip she show us. and i already shut off when i saw the first clip. but not completely turning off yet. the second is from china, showing how strays cats and dogs was captured and peeled their skins alive. this just COMPLETELY TOTALLY turn me off. it is SUPER SUPER 残忍. and i really cant take it. i really cant stand seeing such violate and 冷血无情的stuff. believe it or not, i burst into tears. the room was so cold, i start 2 shiver when the sign of the animal's tail was like cut off appear in my mind. i really cant take such gross image. and i believe these image will appear once in awhile in my mind again and again. super scary.........


i really donnoe that pple can get till this point of killing animals this ways 4 their skins. i really don understand why must they hit the animals with a metal bar right on to their face and purposely cut off their tail 2 make them suffer. i tot they will just aiming on their skin? but why must use such ways 2 end their life? why cant they make a fast one. cut their throat and dead, instead of skin peeling them alive. they are already super super weak without food 4 so many days and they still use such ways 2 kill them......... sad.... so sad.......


lucky i didn't see the whole clip completely. or not i think i will cry 2 death. animals, especially cats and dogs are such a wonderful creation by God. pls...appreciate it.... feel so sad....... yup and this just lead me 2 become emo abit.


tuition at 7.30pm. super sleepy. super boring. i hope everything can be over soon........


i really miss the old days.........

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oh no... my STM is like getting so serious can? can anyone tell me what i must do to boast my memory? when ever i forget something that i need 2 do it just so irritating. i must try my best 2 remember it. or not i just cant carry on in doing what i am doing . stuck.. and this situation always happened at work last time. but now, it get so serious that not only at work but at school, at home, at anywhere, i just seems 2 forget things so easily. oh no! I'm getting old..



some pple tell me is becos I'm feeling too stress so i always forget things. cos that what happened 2 her when she get stress up. i really donnoe whether this is the real reason not. but... I'm just so sick of going back 2 recall what I'm doing at first that will lead me to do what i want to do next. oh no. that time when my class will call 2 write their old and new ez link card number on a piece of paper. and right after i have finish writing, i actually cannot remember whether i got write my old ez link card number not. oh no!! this is really so seriously. i admit, i really feel very stressful recently. maybe becos of the new environment and how competitive my class is and what I'm going through recently make me really stressful. but did this really lead 2 my so serious 的 STM? i really donnoe.



haix... before i can enjoy enough of my youth life, I'm already getting old.... so now, wherever i go, i wan 2 make it a habit 2 carry a note pad with me. so once i got things in my mind that i want 2 do i will write it down immediately so that i wont forget and spend the next few minutes thinking what is the thing that i need to do. I'm getting old.. I'm getting old...

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went 2 school early in the morning today. plan 2 go 4 archery 的 but end up me and may just cant take that boldness out 2 like go 2 them. ya, so we left. we went 2 east point hall 2 shop. and of course tml is mothers' day so may decide 2 buy some stuff 4 her mum. how about me? hey hey. i really donone. we met up with nandy and Amanda 2 eat lunch. nandy say she confirm will fail the test that she just took .but Amanda did says something 2 like encourage her: the most important is exam. so test normally many pple will not care much." haix. but i don think so. esp in my class. i think most of them should be like 暗 底 里 藏 刀 的 吧 。 cos that what happened during secondary school. everyone seems 2 be so slack. but actually they are already well prepare 了.

rushed 2 work after reaching home. my dear sister is still sick. and guess what, she still make it 4 work lor. she got fever. so about like 9 plus pm, she cant take it anymore. start 2 have headache. yup so she was resting all the way until 10.30pm then the manager cal her 2 go back. haix she shouldn't have come work today at the first place lor. but is really power 4 her 2 stand it for so long. and today that pearlyn was here again. i already met her once and that first time she actually accused me that i didn't shake the basket before putting it into the oil. feel like telling her straight into her face that i actually did shake it but she didn't see it.(hello.. u just came out from the office lehx. u didn't see the whole story yet). and today she think that my hair is too messy and wants me 2 tie it properly that no hair from the side will drop. i was like??? hello??? cant u see is super busy. where can i find the time 2 just go and do that? so i just reply her an ok but i didn't do anything 2 it. finally she left about 7pm. yup, back 2 freedom again. how i hope life can just get better a bit at work. I'm just so sick and tired of everything at work. plus my clique is quiting soon becos her exam are near. and one of the closest manager 2 me is also quiting. life will be worst till the worst!!!! oh no!!! it will be so worst went the new RM come. OH NO!!! i really donnoe how many donkey times i said this "OH NO!" today....

phase test on Monday and i have not prepare yet. looks like i really have 2 mug the whole might tml. I'm sorry but I'm just the type of 零 时 抱 佛 脚 的 人 。 so everything is always last minute last minute 的 。

Lina.. i think life is really going 2 be so bad without you. but really you must leave. your exams are far more important. some more you are special case; you got 3 major exam at the end of this year. i will really miss the time we spent working together. is really super fun 2 work with you. anyway, all the best 4 all your exam...

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today S&W was quite fun. although is abit lame but it did build up our trust on our classmate. Ic theory is super boring. i keep falling asleep although i tried my best 2 keep myself awake by eating warheads sweets and mint sweets(provided by Michelle). but i still cannot manage 2 keep myself awake. Ms Irene called me 2 call her tml regarding the church camp. i think she already have the reply from her boss(section head of AHS). i really hope that it is a good news 4 me. school ends at 1pm and meet up with hui and may 2 eat lunch. and accompany hui 2 see Mr Goh. then went home, realise that it is already about 3.15pm le. so, rushed down 2 work.


oh no!! I'm doing cashier today. which i really dislike. why? cos i don have the patience 2 service those super fussy and demanding de customer. it really will test my limit. another reason why is becos outside is always very cold. of coures today i did face this type of situation. super fed up. but still have 2 force that smile out.


and Li, as usual, rush and do things without thinking of the consequences. she was filtering the oil. and then i heard a very panic scream from Aunty salmah( kitchen crew) calling out 2 the manager 4 help. " ma'am....... Fire!!!!!!!!!!" and me, which is at the counter heard that and when peeking see what was really happening. yup, indeed i saw a fire rising up from the fried er. and the next moment someone threw flour on it and it is gone. later, i found out from Aunty Salmah later that Li actually forgot 2 off he fried er which then lead 2 a fire. and worst is another staff actually pour oil on to of the fire and making it worst. lucky the fire is really not so big, so no one was injure. thank God that all life are preserve.


and finally, 11pm comes nearer and nearer. and finally can go home after 11pm.


im really so tired. will blog another day.

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school end as early as 2.15pm today. at first i tot school will probably end at 4plus. and then from there i have 2 rush 2 work.but thank God 4 providing the time. we are release so early. so much time left that i have the time 2 go the bank and get that pathetic stamp and even have time 2 go home and rest awhile.

somehow, i really love 2 work on Monday. cos it is the least customer day. maybe becos of Monday blues, most pple don come out and eat dinner at kfc. and so, is slacking all the way.

tml i need 2 work again. Wednesday night will be tuition. Thursday maybe going 2 watch movie after school(but school ends at 5m on Thurs). Friday night will be cell group. Saturday will be working non stop and Sunday was reserve fore Church alone. so i think my only time of rest will be on Sunday.

but no matter what.... "i will go through" He said.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=33aGaYAZvL4&feature=related

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I'm sorry. I'm an idiot. that referring 2 me. i know that I'm not good in expressing myself . it can get 2 the point when what i say dosent express what i want 2 say. so... i don want 2 make myself clear. or clear your doubts. it will just get worst. i don want 2 make it worst further. i don know that saying all those stuff actually irritate you so much. I'm sorry. i will never say it 2 you again. I'm not sensitive enough 2 realise that and i still trying 2 learn how 2 be so sensitive.



"jin yu, just shout up." the more i say the more i wrong.

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