i really really super like this song. it got lots of meaning in it.



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CT7x3VnrqbA



PS: i tried to put this clip on my blog, but not successful. so click on and listen k.





Casting Crowns - Who Am I Lyrics


Who am I?

That the Lord of all the earth,

Would care to know my name,

Would care to feel my hurt.



Who am I?

That the bright and morning star,

Would choose to light the way,

For my ever wondering heart.



Not because of who I am.

But because of what you've done.

Not because of what I've done.

But because of who you are.



Chorus:

I am a flower quickly fading,

Here today and gone tomorrow.

A wave tossed in the ocean,

A vapor in the wind.

Still you hear me when I'm calling,

Lord you catch me when I'm falling,

And you told me who I am.

I am yours.

I am yours.



Who am I?

That the eyes that see my sin

Would look on me with love

And watch me rise again



Who am I?

That the voice that calm the sea,

Would call out through the rain,

And calm the storm in me.



Not because of who I am.

But because what of you've done.

Not because of what I've done.

But because of who you are.



Chorus:



I am a flower quickly fading,

Here today and gone tomorrow.

A wave tossed in the ocean,

A vapor in the wind.

Still you hear me when I'm calling,

Lord you catch me when I'm falling,

And you told me who I am.

I am yours.



Not because of who I am.

But because of what you've done.

Not because of what I've done.

But because of who you are.



Chorus:



I am a flower quickly fading,

Here today and gone tomorrow.

A wave tossed in the ocean,

A vapor in the wind.

Still you hear me when I'm calling,

Lord you catch me when I'm falling,

You told me who I am.

I am yours.

I am yours.



Whom shall I fear?

Whom shall I fear? '

Cuz I am yours.

I am yours.









most of the time when i feel very emo, this song were always appear in my mind. and the meaning of the lyrics.


when i feel lost and confused, when i again and and again asked my self what am i doing. when i feel unwanted, when i feel every responsible that i holds gets too heavy and collapsing down and pushing me 2 just one corner of life. whenever i feel like giving up, whenever i think the only way out is just 2 disappear from this world.... this song just speaks to me....


"who am i? that the lord of all the earth, would care to know my name, would care to feel my hurt.........." maybe nobody really cares how i feel, or even understand, at least i know, HE knows everything.


" i am a flower quickly fading, here today and gone tomorrow. a wave tossed in the ocean........ still you here me when i calling, you catch me when I'm falling, and tell me who i am, i am yours........" 人的生命如此的脆弱又短暂。even though our life are weak and short, but HE still cares and love us...


"not becos of who i am, but becos of what you done, not becos of what i done, but becos of who you are..." who we think we are and what we did, it doesn't matter much. becos of who HE is( HE is the creator of everything) and what he done matters the most.( dying for us so that we can draw near 2 him again.....)

"whom shall i fear ......." this part just encourage me to press on.......


he is the author and the finisher of our faith(Hebrew 12: 2) he enables us to finish what he made it possible for us to begin. he will not forget us even though we forget him, and he will give us reminder on the way. when our eyes are focused on our future in heaven then one of the consequences is that the material things which so many crave have little appeal for us. (quoted from EDWJ)


" the world is not my home,
I'm just passing through.
my treasure are laid up
somewhere beyond the blue.
the angels beckon me from
heaven's open door,
and i cant feel at home
in this world anymore."
(quoted from EDWJ)


i really cant fell at home in this world anymore. i always wonder whether my room in heaven that God had prepare 4 me is it ready yet. feel so much to return to my real home. and really donnoe when my journey that lead me to my home will ends. but at least, i know at the end of the road, Jesus will be there waiting for me......

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went 2 church in the afternoon. I'm the first 2 reach in my cg. so i sat down there alone, watching pple around. but my mind have just brought me 2 that message that video clip brings again.


http://www.godtube.com/view_video.php?viewkey=19fd9c84c942a08316e0


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uuabITeO4l8&feature=related



that message really affected me. not really affect me alot alot but it just keeps me thinking. what's make me so different from the world if i do those things that the world will do. by just praying the sinner's prayer can not really register my name on the book of life. but also through demonstration of faith. and thinking of many pple just say the sinner's prayer because they don want 2 go 2 hell and not really dedicating their life 2 God. really pray that God can send such powerful preacher 2 all those that just call themselves christian in the outside but empty in the inside and bringing a revival 2 them. and then Aaron appeared, still tot i see wrongly. cos he say he wont be coming mah.


today sermon was about having a thankful heart and pastor Aaron is the 1 preaching. i can feel that he is really trying his best 2 make it so interesting and funny that we will pay attention and listen. suddenly realise what's the real reason 4 my sadness at work yesterday: i didn't have a thankful heart. which then resulted my unhappiness. thanksgiving is very important 4 a break through. and from now on, i must always carry this thankful heart. cos there is 3 things that i will be resulted in if i don have a thankful heart: first, spiritual poverty. second, unsatisfaction(means that i will always complaint that my life is not good and not going the way i want). lastly, it is a attitude that will poison my soul.



so i must keep reminding myself 2 have a thanksgiving heart. 2 focus on my blessing, 2 look fore 2 the good things in my life than 2 focus my eyes on the bad things. giving thanks in everything.



oh ya, we have new friends that join us 4 service today. it is Sarah's cousins. wow.. so good 2 see them. really hope 2 see them again.



and this is how i spent my Sunday. it is much better than Saturday of course. I'm looking forward 4 an exciting week ahead.

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recently, just found out that my CA, ms Irene Seah is actually under my church family, the assembly of God church. never did i expected it. some how or another, i don think this is a coincidence, but part of God's great plans. it had just further assured me of God's will and the purpose why i am in ITE. suddenly see a small part of the big picture that God have 4 my life. i really hope 2 go 4 the church camp. although pple may discourage me saying you shouldn't give up study 4 church. but I'm firm. if God calls me, how can i miss the opportunity in meeting him.(God's calling doesn't always come. it may just comes only once.) if God have already planned ahead 4 me 2 go 4 this camp, i believe i sure can go, the leave application confirm can get through 的. so i really looking forward to this camp. looking forward in a deeper walk with him and my fellow sister and brother in Christ.





saw this video at Godtube.com. http://www.godtube.com/view_video.php?viewkey=760456b767ffa60dde3c

i really don wish that i will be the 1 that is being left out. really don wan 2 be caught unaware, as the day and hour is unknown. this clip is really great. it encourage me 2 be always ready 4 God's calling and the passion 4 him.





I'm just a part time student....

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finally able 2 wake up late today. always have 2 force myself 2 wake up early every morning. lucky not on Sunday morning. although i didn't reali wake up veri late. jus like 9.30am.(my mum calls and ask what i like 2 have 4 breakfast and was awake by that call.) at first i tot because of that call it jus make me so awake that i cannot continue sleeping le. but i still choose 2 lie on my bed till 10am. and the next moment i know is like 10.30am already.(wake up by the noise my dad makes as he, my mum and sister came home.)

ok....
went 2 sp with jero as she needs 2 get some stuff 4 her art. after that, we walk 2 church drinking bubble tea. i brought vanilla ice blended. and is like super sweet. cant stand the sweet at all. so end up throwing it away. the weather is super hot this afternoon and the ice in the bubble tea melted so fast...

CET class is like... ps Alan jus called us 2 fill up the survey form and after he prayed 4 the class and that it. i actually still looking forward in what he will going 2 teach us 4 the last lesson and the lesson notes. but.. didn't expect that i actually got none of it. still tot of going back 2 the class and asking him 4 notes after we left. still tot that next week still got CET class. but it's all over. (looking forward 4 the next CET term 2 start.)

since the class end so early, me n jero sat together and chat. but i felt a bit guilty because i left joseph alone, again. lol. but jero needs my company. (I'm sure he understand.) sometime i jus hope that i can spilt myself up into 2. not only 2 but many pieces. so that i can have enough time 2 do a lot of stuff and sparing it 2 my friends that needs my company... but is not possible. I'm not God. that can be at so many place at the same time. lol

today sermon is abdt strife. saying that the spirit of strife brings destruction 2 us.and we must resist it. strife provides an access 4 Satan 2 come in.
my life, of course, there is strife. and was reali struggling whether 2 go 2 the altar call not. struggling with pride. but..i keep telling myself that i should go. cos this altar call is 4 me, it applies 2 me. in the end i did plug up my courage 2 go. is super cold in the Audi, although i already wore a jacket, but i can still feel that my body is shivering and my knees too.

is not abdt whether is right or wrong.or whether they understand or not. but is abdt love. the love i have 4 God n the love that i should have 4 pple. jin yu.. Pls remember that... stop having strife with pple..(especially with your family.)

tml school start. and i feel so mixed feeling. heard that there is like 1 week orientation. felt sianx.i should have just spend that time studying or working k. somehow i jus feel dread 2 go 2 school. oh God, Pls help me!!!

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