i had quit archery. cos i wanted 2 fully commit my Saturday morning 2 fish4men. although i want so much 2 continue staying in archery, cos they say they going 2 form a girls team as they do not have a girls team at the moment. but how? i don know 分身术. so i decided 2 give up archery. anyway, i only have 1 life and it will soon be gone, and only what done for Christ will last. and 1 thing that you cannot do in heaven is evangelism cos everyone up there is already saved.

so i went 2 fish4men today. get a chance 2 know this sister. she is very nice and open 2 me. she said she was very encouraged by me, cos i was saved through fish4men. actually when i recall back of what had happened in my life, i actually found God sending his messager 2 me even before i got saved, even at very very young age. I'm just waiting for someone 2 tell me who this God really is. and yup, the time have come when someone witnessed 2 me. my heart is ready and open for the good news. i will never ever forget i was once lost and now found.

the love God have for us, cannot be silence. we must proclaim it. how can it be silence? is too great that it cannot be silence. same as the love you may have 4 someone else other than God. how can you remain silence and not try all ways 2 let the person know the love you have for him/her. typical human being will always have the mindset of wanting something in return.

is what you are living for worth dying for? think about this question. what is driving your life at this point of your life? is it all those material stuff? or an approval from someone? or other not so important thing.

went 2 work at 4pm. really don feel like working. always feel like quiting this job. is like almost 1 week i have not been working. saw some changes in the store. the office got some rearrangement of some stuff and got a new long mirror on the wall. feels like a bed room. the sink area also have new stuff. a rack is fixed beside the sink 2 put all the containers.

i do kitchen with 1 sp staff today. super busy due 2 new promo, toasted twister. i tasted it. i think is like super normal, nothing so special at all. wonder why still got so many pple buying it and eat.

worked in this job 4 3yrs. and super sianx le. still have 2 holds on till the end of this year before i can change job. maybe i should just step out in faith that God will provide me with another better job. or maybe i should just pray that God can give me a renew passion 4 this job. i really so sick of it. but if recall the time that i have spend there, really will feel a bit unbearable 2 part. days when i can get so angry that i can give attitude the whole day. days when I'm so tired from working full shift everyday that i can just lie on the floor 2 sleep first thing when i reach home. days when i just start 2 learn how 2 do cashier that i can sleep talk saying" crispy or original?". but all are the past. cant bring them back anymore. i need 2 move on 2 greater and bigger things.

tomorrow is fathers' day. have you planned 2 do something special for your father? just want 2 wish all fathers out there a happy fathers' day!

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i will only be updating my blog once a week. so don need bother 2 read k.


what a week.. time really since 2 be flying so fast. and is the end of the week. and tomorrow is CHURCH CAMP!!!! yeah!!!


busy week as usual

Monday, school in the morning and work at night. super tired. left with no energy 2 study.
Tuesday, was the same as Monday.
Wednesday, got tuition after school. same super tired.
Thursday, class test i had just ruin it again. but who cares right?
Friday, when buying some stuff 4 church camp with may n lexandra right after school.
and today, swimming at 8am, fish4men at 10.30am, worship u alone at 5.30am


i suddenly realise on Friday that i already very long never把烦恼革一边。慢慢的和朋友闲逛。有一种无法形容的轻松和快乐。

maybe is becos almost most of the worries have been settle. or maybe becos it is just so long since i last go shopping with no purpose. anyway, my mum's appointment is being post pone. so don have 2 worry about whose going 2 bring her. test is over. although another test is coming soon. IC test. knew it. teacher 没有这么容易放过我们 before our holidays. never mind. but is on Wednesday. i wont be back 2 school yet. but did told IC teacher on Friday. but her reply was really not very securing. she just say ok. didn't even ask me which class i from or what is my name. anyway i will pester her 2 let me take the test on Friday.


worship you alone was great. if only it can last longer. just want 2 spent longer time in God's presence.


we may not be perfect in the things we do. but so? you think you can do better? i don care. cos u are also not perfect. 虽然，会一直想要做的越完美越好。虽然办不到。但我知道我已经进我全力了。所以我会满足，但也会想要做的更好。你以为我不想吗? 我真的很想。但是， 如果只是单凭我自己的力量当然做不到。因为还需要祢所给的力量才能完成你要我做的事。


我觉得为别人活着是一种快乐。就是因为你快乐所以我快乐。不要问我为什么。如果一个人的世界只有自己，那个人会快乐吗? 如果你觉得是会的，那你到不入去沙漠健屋子过生活吧。这只是是我的想法。你当然能和我唱反调。你觉得呢?

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i would like to start today post by praising and thanking God for what ever that have happen today, yesterday or tomorrow or the soon to come. He deserve all praise!!! thank you lord for everything that had already happened and will soon happen.


this is what happened yesterday...

it is my first practical assignment. and i really donnoe what is the different between practical assignment and phase test. is like the same 的 lorx. waited super long to go in to the lad. cos is like 4 at a time go in. then the next 4 must wait like 4 5mins plus den can go in. before i went in i already know the test is on liquid-liquid extraction(thanks 2 Nicole). at first, i was quite confident cos i tot it will be very easy. indeed, it is very easy. but nervous had took control of me. you see, i never use a fume hood before( i mean 2 carry out the experiment using fume hood alone without any guidance). cos the 2 practical lesson we have on it, teacher is there 2 assist us. and i, don even have the chance 2 do that experiment due to insufficient time and fume hood. i only know how it feels like 2 shake the separating funnel that contain RO water. and i think my brain got wire disconnected when I'm in the lad. i actually did things that i cant imagine i did it.


first, i forget that less dense float and denser sink. what's wrong with me? i really donnoe why i made this mistake. which is like so common sense. so disappointed with myself. and this have cos me 2 lost a lot of marks. the question paper showed so clearly that hexane is 0.66g/ml. and water is 1.0g/ml. so what solvent is at the bottom of the funnel? isn't is obvious? my brain got wire disconnected...


second, i forget 2 rinse the separating funnel before i start pouring the solvent in. so minus mark.


third, i forget 2 observe before shaking the separating funnel. so i any how write what i think is correct for the "before observation" question on the paper.minus mark. (but really hope what i wrote is correct)


fourth, i forget 2 open the cap when i want 2 drain the solvent out of the separating funnel after shaking. minus mark.


fifth, there is this question, we must show teacher the solvent that is more contaminated after separation. and the answer is of course the hexane is more contaminated with solute now. but, you know i forget about the density part. so i tot the solvent at the bottom of the funnel is hexane but it is actually water. so i show teacher that "hexane". minus mark again.


lastly, i really donnoe which bottle 2 pour the waste in. got 3 bottles. one is acidic, another is alkaline and last is solvent. i was wondering what, what solvent? should i pour in 2 this bottle? but i remember hexane is alkaline hydrocarbon. so i took the alkaline bottle and decide 2 pour before teacher stopped me and point 2 the correct bottle. minus mark again.


although i quite confident that the 3 question that is on the question paper, i will answer correctly.( cos i spent 2 hours memorising ). but i know it will still be hard 2 pass. haix.... i cant accept that i actually made so many mistakes. although i know no matter how much effort i put in, 都不会是完美的。但是，我不会因为这样而就不再努力。反而， 我会想要证明给自己是可以。


after that, went 2 hospital with mum. appointment with doctor at 2.30. i tot we will be making our way home by 3pm. cos i tot only like see the doctor den go back. but is not. my mum she going 2 remove stitches today also. and then the Q was like super long. while waiting, my whole mind only got this word" hungry". i didn't eat breakfast in the morning at rushed down 2 hospital right after test. so my whole mind was like going "hungry hungry..."after that still have 2 go collect medicne. and then must go settle some bills, medisave stuff. so I'm super super late for work. i suppose 2 report 2 work at5 pm. but only reach at 6.15pm.


lucky my new boss is not on shift. hahax. the sprain in my left wrist got worst went i forget about it when i tried 2 push the handle up from the bun toaster." ouch!!!" ya.. i was like ouch ouch all the way till i successfully push the handle over. but i went and do cashier at about 8.30 due to not enough staff. opening the flags with my left hand arches my wrist too. should i really go and see a doctor? what will the doctor say 2 me? call me 2 rest my wrist? how? my work require me to carry heavy stuff. forget about it then. heard from Li said that my new boss will be on shift at night next Monday. at first, i tot i shouldn't work next Monday. but then, is like i never work with him before. so why not take this challenge and see how and what type of person he really is. so... 来吧！！！there is like so many left over that day!! rejoice!!! can bring home. but how come none of my friends want 2 eat chicken at all.asked hui and may, both don wan. of course, i end up giving LH.


my mum next appointment is in 2 weeks time. guess which date is it.....

is on 9jun. and i will not be around. how? called my bro, he said he is always not free on Monday 的. then how? the doctor wants 2 see my mum in 2 weeks time. i can change the appointment date 吗? is it very selfish of me, becos i want 2 go 2 church camp and then change the appointment date? if my bro found out about it, i think will chaos again. how??? how???


what if IC phase test is fall on the dates between 9-11jun? can i tell the teacher said that i cant turn up 4 the test becos I'll be away??? so i have 2 retake? but retake isn't the maximum marks you will get is only 50? what will the teacher and the rest think about me? someone that don take study seriously? how???


如果我会分身术就好。if only i can be in so many places at one time.

so many thing clashes together.

archery clashes with fish4men

guitar course clashes with crystal growing

mum's appointment clashes with camp

mum's appointment clashes with school

mum's appointment clashes with work



does this show that i really donnoe how 2 organise my time?? yup i think so....



anyway, i have a God that can make impossible possible. maybe I'm not possible 2 have 分身术。 but at least i must believe that He can provide me a way out 2 go church camp. what i can only do now is only pray, pray and pray.






and today......



first lesson is swimming, the coach called led us 2 go down in the pool which is at the 2m deep side. shock at first. he called us 2 tried and touch the floor and while our hands holds on 2 the wall. me... shock again when he called us to jump deep in and jump up 2 the surface. of course, 2m deep. i never tried before. so i was scare. but after a few time, got confidence with it after a few tries. not so scary after all. the coach only release us at 10.50am and the lesson after that was at 11am. so really don have time 2 bath. everybody bath shortcut and rush out of the at about 11.10 still late. but lucky the door have not close yet when we go up 2 the LT.



lesson was like very hard 2 understand. so i fall asleep half way(again). school ends at 1pm today. yeah!! and I'm not working today. finally got the chance 2 go back home early. but before that i went 2 cdac 2 collect a "ready 4 school "pack. they call me 2 go down 的. or not i wont go down.


reach there. donnoe where 2 go. went 2 this department and they called me 2 go 2 another department called the volunteer and social department. and they called me 2 go 2 the education department. when i reach there, they said i should go 2 the volunteer and social department. i was like huhx??? i tot i just came up from there? i suddenly feel like I'm like a ball that is pushed from one place 2 another place. went down there and finally is the right place.


i really need 2 clear my table asap so that i cant start studying for my o level. i really must!!! but i really donnoe where should i place all my stuff or where should i start from.... so messy..... how? i see my table so messy i got no mood 2 study already. need 2 get it done soon.....



and the end.....



hui i miss you..... really..... hope everything is going ok 4 u.......


wow!! this is my longest post ever!!!

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this is some random photos. in case some pple say my blog is super boring and plain without pictures...
me and Michelle(my clique in school) in cafe2. Michelle u are really so nice. and i really love you!!!!

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