我 很 期 待 星 期 天 。 我 最 爱 星 期 天 。 不 是 因 为 这 星 期 天 是 我 生 日 。 而 是 我 就 很 喜 欢 。 因 为....
cos i will always find the answer that I'm looking for the week . recharged and restored. cos Sunday is a day that can be in the house of God and entering into the holy of holy and to a secret place with only me and God alone. and Sunday is a holy day make by God to rest! 我 爱 星 期 天 ！
I'm really super tired and bored to go work straight after school. and work was really bad when people don communicate and where communication breaks down. which i learn how to actually depend on myself than to depend on others. i will really go crazy! if everyone that i talk to just don want to reply me! is really makes me mad. cos excuse me, I'm talking to you, not the wall. response!
很 忙 ！ 很 忙 ！ 很 忙 ！
PM project must be carry out asap as date line is getting nearer and nearer. still haven manage to find any sponsor. will it be able to carry out smoothly is still a big question mark. 要 加 油 ！
aqua 真 的 很 无 聊 ！ 我 太 习 惯 忙 来 忙 去 了 。 一 下 叫 我 没 事 赶 ， 我 实 在 停 不 下 来 。
recently, i was super disappointed as i felt people don appreciate me of what i have done for them in work. and my thinking was really floating at "my presence is not important" even if I'm not around, it is just 1 less person. no matter whether is it in school or at work. BUT..... it is not really like that after all. what God told me through His word assured me of my important. and i had throw these thought away.
no matter whether is it possible or not possible. or whether i can see it or i cant. i believe what You said will surely come to pass.
JIN YU, step out in faith!!!
this is how i want to celebrate my birthday:
i want to spend it with God in the secret place.
and this is what i really want for birthday:
a changed, new heart.
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so, even till the last minute, i cant find 1 person to share to, i was like" no!!! i must at least share to 1 today!" keep praying that God can give me open doors, and lead me to the person that He wants me to speak to. and yes, door open. finally! Ben found that person, so i was helping him. and this one and only person is really enough. he got saved. we prayed! yeah!!!! i can see that excitement in Ben. the joy of sharing the gospel is something that you really have to experience.
and i didn't know that Winnie got salvation too. yes! there was a total of 3 salvation today. praise God! I'm sure the angles are rejoicing in heaven. leading someone to Christ is 1 thing. following up with the person is another thing. and i think this part is tougher than the first part. and this is where i cant depend on my own strength to do. or not i really will be very broken.
caijie said the notice board must change abit here and there. not really abit. quite a big bit. after i heard what he said, i almost faint. LOL. cos is going to be alot of work. n he wants me to write a testimony. faint x2. suddenly feels so busy again.
rushed off to EH for Elene and victor's wedding. that my first time attending a wedding. amazed. next time if i really got married, my wedding's message that the pastor going to share, no matter what must have gospel message and sinners' prayer. this is call one stone kill two birds. Elene is so happy. feel very happy for her too. i wonder what kind of person will God prepare for me. but now i just cant help but feel disgust abdt BGR. sorry if offend any1.
rushed off to work. thank God. not so busy. i really really need God's help to teach me how to love and accept this person at work. i cant help but dislike her. maybe bcos she can slack and i cant. and the way that she always thinks she is somebody. i really want to love her. but somewhere some part of me is not willing.
recently i feel that I'm not like myself. feel that i have change to another me. which i really don like. and started to wonder where have i gone. den realise that I'm still up there in the clouds. is time for me to be back and face the reality. n i really believe that this is a season of change God had for me. something must be done for me to move on. i really pray that i can get pass this season and move on. i know nothing is impossible for God. but something is really i need to help myself before God can help me. just like making a decision. jia you!
i love this songs. cos its always remind me of God and His timing. His perfect timing.
Sometimes I wonder what lies ahead
How long till my hunger is fed
They say it's hard to make it in this part of town
So many people on this merry-go-round
Some folks try astrology
Some turn to crystal balls
To find an answer,
To get through it all
I just fall on my knees and
I try to pray
In the silence I can hear Him say
The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign
Everything in its time
I often feel like I'm two steps behind
Somebody must have moved that finish line
There are a thousand reasons
Why I should give up
But I'm stubborn in the things I believe
The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign
'cause maybe there's another plan
One I still can't see
A little surprise, like your love in my life
Funny how time changes how we see
The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign
Everything in its time
Everything in its time
have you found where you are?
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monday and tuesday
the beginnig of the week was already a tiring week. cos got work. so is like after doing crystal in sch, must rush down to work. and im late again.. ... ... by the time i reach home.. is reali super late..
wednesday
got test. and is on titration. was so nervous that my hand was shaking when using the dropper. LOL. so glad that i manage to get the front calculation correct. was quite confuse at first of what to do. so i label everything. den did the milk sample first. over shot!!! so i did 4times for milk and the unknown samlpe. i also donnoe how come i got time to do. maybe i reali do very fast. i open the vault continuosly for the unknown sample. dat y over shot. LOL. and den the volume of titrant used, the gap was so big. one was like 7point plus plus another was like 11point plus plus..Zzzz. the teacher nv c i do the titration for the unknown sample, still tot i do twice onli. asked me twice whether i got do not. dots.. suspect me.. did 4 times k. stay in sch till 630 den left. nv go tuition today, cos must meet up wif the cell group 2 discuss of the community project. still tot can rest cos nv go tution. hahax.
thursday
NAFA TEST!!! so dread of it. almost give up my 2.4km. but eventually still persuaded myself to run. thank God! i think will pass the 2.4. thank God! cos i manage to pass all station. geetar was so funny. was doing sit up and she count for me. she counted 27, 28, 29 and 40..... LOL. i was complainting where got so many. and yeah.. pass my standing board jump by 2 marks. tooked height and weight. funny, i tot i will gain weight cos of my emotion eating. but didnt and dropped. surprise.... hahax. was late 30mins late for guitar lesson. we took so many photo. teacher was funny. we went back into the classromm already, still tot he rushed to go for his another lesson. cos was already pass 6.30pm. end up we came out of the classroom, he still at the counter chatting with the clerk. reali uncle lorx. hahax.
friday
skipped cca. went home after doing crystal. i reali oso feel very 对 不 起 ms lee. cos our crystal r not clear n not nice. and she have such high expectation on us. i don dare to talk to her. telling her that sorry, we have fail to meet your expectation. is like only left one month. ONE MONTH. something must happen!!!! reach home and took a short nap. reali too sleepy. then went to buy sticker for the communty project. then grace and i meet up and do the shopping for the food. and you know today was the first day of the seven month. so everywhere were pple burning joss stick and papers. did saturation. by time we finish saturation was already 9.30pm. went to aaron's hse to practise the story. marilyn was the noah. peici and aaron was so funny, the way they acted drowing... reach home only at 12 . so late. Zzzz.
saturday
yeah!!!! today was the community project. reach aaron's house at 9.30 am to prepare the food. actually also didnt really helped. by the time going to help is like need to leave to go church for fish4men 了. and at fish4men, ps weena was sharing. she is one of the pastor that i really impress. last time she shared that how she actually bring her parents to christ and how her sister encourage her. she say we can actually pray anywhere. don have to find one place and sit down by yourself and pray. learn something new. don get shocked when you suddenly heard me talking to myself k.
right after fish4men, after my cell have arrived. here goes. so busy pumping ballons and preparing for this community project. hahax. before we knew, the kids are here already!!! OMG! haven prepare finish. but we start the event by playing games. i tot im suppose to lead the game with grace??? hahax. but was busy doing registration for the kids and taking photos. missed the part where grace do the hula. shld have take the photo. there are parents around too. oh men, the kids are so cute. onli brandon i don have the patience when comes to him. reali cant stand him, he is reali rude cos his team loss. God i pray you can give me more patience when i need to interact with him. after the game, we did our story. LOL. i think most of them was not listening. anyway it was quite messy. the story have start and the time when peici have to 上 场 then she was not there and still walking around. funny. peici, you are so cute!!! den came the most exciting part, is food time!!! and den was free and easy. manage to talk to some of the parents. they are really nice. got one parents she actually was sitting on wheel chair. at first i was wondering how she manage to come up from the stairs. 原 来 , she still can climb. jus that her legs was weak. samuel says that there is a kid that cal him an untrainned ballon maker. super funny.
kid : " this is the untrained ballon maker. called him to make a sword and he make a dog and it pops. "
after all the kids and parents left, we clean up the place. marilyn n i was mopping the floor with dove soap. cos there is no soap. went to take a quick dinner befor heading to FOP. the whole indoor statdium was so packed. was really a good sermon. but im really ver sleepy. haix. fall asleep. force myself to be awake. but really too tired. haix, missed a good sermon. is abdt growing old or growing up. we definately will grow old but not grow up. 1cor13:11 " when i was a child, i talked like a child, i thought like a child, i reasoned like a child. when i was a man, i put childish way behind me." God wants us to put aside childish. childish and child -like are different. God wants us to us to be child -like but not childish. and first is to accpet the responsibility that we have. responsible is the ability to respond. and what you have control over, you have responsible for it. reach home only at 12 plus also.
today
pastor mark conner came to our church. he is really veri funny. sermon was abdt the 7 power tools to build God's house. great sermon! how i hope there is no cet class. hahax. but got. almost fall asleep in the class.
is augest already??? oh no!!! haix.. oral is cominggggggggggggggggg... counting down already. stresssssssssss................
i think this week was quite a emo week. hahax. mayb bcos of the book im reading now. " the last sign" looking forward to His return. but God say he will only return when the good news are spread to everyone on earth.
when i look at the sky, at the clouds, how i hope You will appear and came down from there. jus like you have promised that you will come down from the clouds.
God, hope to see you soon!!!!
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it surely had reminds me that we are all living at the end times and time shouldnt be wasted.
ok. my week. what can i say? i look forward 2 an exciting and different week for the weeks to come.
thursady
got PA on thursday. thank God that it is reali super easy. but the waiting part is reali so bored. hahax. so i saw ms lim cutting the paper towel 2 small pcs. so i was looking at how she do it. so funny. i just keep looking at her cos is reali bored. i didnt reliase that she will notice that. LOL. she saw me looking at her.
so she say: "why? want 2 help me is it?"
me:"oh ya...." laugh
ms irene:" go help lorx."
so i stood up n walk to her.
ms lim:"want to get extra points is it?"
me:" no la... just too boring." laugh
is reali too bored. cannot expect me to jus stone ther n look in the air. isnt it more ineresting 2 look at ms lim cuting the paper towel? hahax.
finally learnt new things in guitar. cos we have been revising n revising. cos we cant remember all the chords n notes. we learn how 2 pluck. is quite interesting de compare 2 just playing chords. i cant stand it.. i jus keep strumming the wrong strings.. hahax.... cant stand teacher weird hair stype too....
rush 2 church after guitar lesson. was super late as we plan 2 meet at 6.45. i onli reach at 7.20. LOL. only reach home abdt 10plus.
friday
experiement 22 on the oraganic structual and condesened formaula is reali quite fun and interesting. teacher actually taught my grp using "bedrooms" example. funny but more easy 2 understand. right after lesson went straight 2 see all my crystal babes. is the same. belle don seems 2 be growing very well. saw other group crystal which is reali far more nicer than ours. how sia? reali feel like telling ms lee dat we don have confident in usiong 99.9%pure de chemical. but how? im willng 2 give a try. but de result may not b successful. we going 2 grow 99.9% pur crysatl starting on monday!!!! i want 2 trust God for a way and solution. i don want 2 think of the outcome now.
after finish with the crystal, went for cca badminton. but 1 very disappointed news is today there is no training. n teacher say he forget 2 inform us last week. is reali dot dot dot man. cos the hall will b used by other pple at 2.15. so we play until 2.15. korshim seems 2 like playing badminton with the wall and the floor. LOL. no offend k. is jus super funny when he jus keep hitting it towards the floor and the wall. left sch and went to TM with michelle to buy a new bag. is reali super ex. but i reali need a new bag. if i continue use my old brown colour shoulder bag, not only my shoulder wil break, the handle of the bag will break too. the handle, is torn half way liao. if i use it again 2 school, confirm break, then i willl have 2 hug my bag all the way home. LOL
still thank God that there is no badminton, so that i can reach home early. went for cell grp at 7.30. brander was here. dot dot dot. he begged us 2 play catching. so we played ice n water. n im so blessed that i am the ice. LOL. super exhauted k. how can i probably catch joseph. his leg is so long. and half the time i was screaming.... " you cannot move.!!!" LOL...
today
went to church in the morning. today was the "do it all for you" only my cell grp and another cell grp was doing it for today. each grp went door 2 door to 3 levels of block at block 100. mostly living there was elderly. and they are really loney. we spend some time talking to them too. and block 100 flat is the type with no bedroom but with bigger living room de flats, their door was facing each other too. jus like the drama last time shown on channel 8 abdt the water tank.
went to work. and was late again. recently always late for work. feel so guilty. and you know what. i must go for injection!!!! de injection is every 3 years must go 1 time. im not scare of inection but is just the pain that last for a few days after iinjecting that will kill me. sianx. i think i will hopefully go for the injection after nafa test bah.
this week i very good girl k. sleep very early. but actually that was not my plan in my changing plan. cos i plan 2 use the night 2 study seems during the day i cant find the time. but, seems like it cannot b like dat. den i have 2 wake up super early to study seems i want 2 sleep early. sleeping early is now part of my changing plan. some mayb thinking, how can sleep early change ones life. of course it cant. my plan is 2 wake up early. that why must sleep early. wake up early for? not only to study but oso wanting 2 prioritize some stuff. i plan to do the most important thing first thing first at the beginning of each day. there is still a long way to go but the first step in changing is always the toughest. and i have took the first step.
dear angle, belle and crystalbelle babies,
pls grow well and not be so greedy in growing veri big at veri short time. pls protect yourself from the attack of other crystal growing on you out of no where. pls prevent yourself from having too much lines from growing on you. pls remember 2 bath everyday so that you can remain clear. pls remember 2 eat everyday. pls take good care of yourself, mummys cant be always around to look after you everyday. jia you!!! we want to put expectation on you. don let us disappointed k!! see ya!!! take very very good care!!!!
im quit worried that children may not turn up for the event that we plan. how? i donnoe.but i will trust God with this event, into his hand. i will have faith even it is as small as mustard seed.
" because you have so little faith. i tell you the truth, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, 'move from here to there' and it will move.nothing willbe impossible for you." ( matthew 17:20-21)
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today was IC class test. i spent the whole night ytd 2 study. i did sleep. for abdt 3 hrs. i very impressed that i actually break my own record of drinking 4cups of tea at one go. and let talk abdt the test. it is really not i expected. cos i expected that it will be veri hard. but end up is below expectation. but that doesn't mean i will get full marks k.
i found out the reason for moodiness alr. and is disappointment and stress that leads to it. disappointed with myself that i donnoe how to do the qn on the practical worksheet. n that leads to always have to rely on others 4answer. i want to do myself. disappointed and stress that our Crystal growing process still faced with unsolvable problems. disappointed with teacher that for the sake of wanting to release us early, rush thru everything. is so fast that i cant catch. is so rush that pple breaks their apparatus. why rush ? trying to catch some train? instead is us that is at the loosing end. i felt more disappointed and discourage when ying jun say that badminton was not very organise. this is just some of the reasons that i know that contribute to the mood swing.
but badminton turn out quite ok. thanks to ying jun. and after playing really lifted my mood up. make some new friends in badminton. they will reali quite nice de pple. thank God for placing them around me. and 1 of them actually take the same bus home as me.
by the time i reach home, i was really very tired.
God really knows what i need even before i asked him. he just provided even in very small thing. and i m really very amazed. thank you Lord!!!
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ok i should update my blog seems some1 requested.
my week was as usual, busy and tiring.
my dear crystal is officially abort on Friday. is reali veri pressure, cos Michelle and i is back 2 square 1. 3 weeks down the drain. n we both fear that we cant grow any perfect long crystal out. ms lee did told us dat if we cant grow out any crystal from using 99.9% pure chemical then we wont b able 2 go for nus challenge. as in only 2 grps will go for that challenge. and i think teacher wants my grp 2 go. although i think is reali unfair for other grps. but there is reali gd n bad reason. but at that time when teacher want us 2 abort dear crystal im reali feel hopeless. cos we are left with nothing except the 2 super saturated solution dat is donnoe going 2 denature soon. keep crystalising very fast. is really veri wasted, teacher feel dat way too. somehow feel dat we like对 不 起 老 师 。 cos is reali wasting chemcial. the 99% pure is 1 bottle for 180 bucks and the 99.9% pure is 480 bucks per bottle and smaller bottle lor. if we reali cannot grow anything out then i don know how. may my crystal glorified your name.
Michelle and i due 2 crystal growing missed our guitar lesson. n there is no make up lesson. so we changed timing for our guitar class to Thursday 5.30pm. another day that is fully packed.
i was late for CG. n i lead P&W. ahhh.. some veri paiseh thing happened. looks like I'm reali not gd in leading P&W. mayb practise will make it more perfect and let me gain more confident in leading. but practise make perfect, but nobody is perfect. then why practise? hahax. quote from hui.
when to work yesterday. reali don feel like going. cos I'm scare of the stress. but thank God never did i expect that there is not alot of customer compare 2 other Saturday. i should have just trust God with this situation. actually i plan not 2 go. but feel veri guilty. so i went, but late. i only plan 2 work till Nov. so i estimated. abdt minimum 40more days 2 work only. there is a new staff from china. now we got 4 china gals. hahax. really feel like going out with them. that new staff, she reali veri cute. she told me that she don quite like Singapore. cos she say she was disappointed. back in china they told her that Singapore is like heaven once you step in. no rubbish wad ever. but she was really disappointed. she say our rats here are even bigger than their rats in china.
i spend the time waiting for bus and journey back home think abdt this 3 years working in kfc. and just right that saturday date 12 july marked the day i join kfc 3years ago. there is good and bad times. time that i will never forget. 3 years. is not a short period of time. working there is one of my turning point of my life. it really open up my mind set and Borden it. and i do not know that the next turning point of my life is just a year away, knowing this person that i desire 2 knows, finally reveal himself to me. I'm glad. thinking of leaving kfc makes me feel unbearable. but i know i cant stay there forever.
today pastor chng peached. 1 point was abdt the spirit of expectation. dat we should expect more. but somehow fear is hindering me. cos i know that the more i expect the more disappointed i am. he say abdt this story where this man that cant move cant get down 2 the river of healing cos nobody helped him. Jesus came. and asked him whether he wanted to be heal. instead of telling Jesus " yes, pls heal me, i heard of your great healing power and i believe that u can heal me." he said" nobody wanted 2 help me down the healing river." sometime our mind are just so conditioned. that we tot we cant get this or do did, we think that this things must be done before we can get what we want to do. but is not always liike dat. that where our mindset have 2 change.
is another busy week ahead. may i not be so busy nad have more time for God.........
........................ may test on friday be easy...............
why did Jesus die on the cross?
spiritual reason : to wash away our sin.
physical reason: he claim that he is God.
there is 3possible reason why he claim that he is God.
first, he is a liar.
second, he is a lunatic.
third, he is really God.
can someone probably give his life up for this lie? would someone b willing 2 die for this lie?
Jesus is not lunatic. he is mentally sound. he teach and heals pple.
that is only one possibilities. He is really God.
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