新 年 一 定 要 换 新 包 包 ， 新 发 型 ， 新 鞋 子 ， 新 衣 服 吗 ? 我 觉 得 就 算 拥 有 这 一 些 新 的 东 西 和 改 变 ， 如 果 我 们 不 改 变 我 们 的 想 法 ， 我 们 看 这 世 界 ， 这 新 的 一 年 的 态 度 ， 一 切 都 不 会 有 变 化 。 唯 一 的 不 同 应 该 也 只 是 桌 上 的 日 历 和 日 期 。一 旦 我 们 看 这 世 界 的 眼 光 不 一 样 ， 一 切 都 不 一 样 了 。
今 年 我 想 要 做 的 事 可 多 了 。我 首 先 要 打 好 基 础 ， 这 样 才 可 以 健 高 楼 。一 个 人 的 基 础 真 的 很 重 要 。
last year was a great year and this year is gonna be greater! 前 年，我 真 的 不 知 道 我 是 怎 样 度 过 的。 not only i have to study hard in this new school, i still have my o level. on top of that i have to work and my church commitment. last year my mum got a major surgery. and i have to take care of her, bring her to appointment, which then missed a lot of lesson. but God was faithful. times when i want to give up, i will keep reminding myself the reason that I'm here on this earth is for God and it just provided me strength to continue to press on. times when i feel that i am very far from God, He show me that He is always there. this year is gonna be greater than last year becos He is the reason!
school just started this week. I'm like back to my routine. so bored. but i believe things gonna be very different for me in school this year! yes, fulfilling that purpose for me to be in this school!
but a lot of things for this year is still very uncertain. is like hanging in the air. still no direction yet. things like where i will be this year in church, what are the things that i can do and contribute and how can i serve Him even more. no matter where i will be, is still moving to the same goal. just that have to follow my calling. but i still do not know my calling. which prove that i still have not know God deeper. that 1 of my new year resolution, is to learn and study deeper in the word of God. so who is willing to be my mentor? I'm desperately searching for one too. please introduce one to me! hahax.
recently work is really a torture. bcos of that person. that uncle. i really cant stand him at all. he is really a weird person. if he is in a good mood, he will sing to me. when he is in bad mood, he will really go crazy. he will fail to cook the chicken fillet that the kitchen require to make burgers then said he never hear us calling him to cook. then shout here shout there. we shout to him to cook, he ignore. then after that blame us when he didn't hear. end up we have to cook it ourselves. but this is still very minor.
worst is that when he carry the tray that is full of chicken, he don say excuse me as he want to supply the chicken in. we don even know he is standing behind us. he will just bang us and it hurts! that is 1 time he just kicked me to signal me to move away! of course i did tell my boss. and my boss said just ignore him. yes, I'm trying very hard. but he keep on picking on me and makes me feel very uncomfortable! GRR!!! he will purposely makes me feel irritated by standing very close to me or take his food put it near my face and call me to eat it. or he will talk crap and laugh at his own crap. crap like 小 妹 ， 我 们 一 起 换 工 作 ， 吃 饭 ， 出 去 。 or he will act like a manager and ask whether i got work on which day which day, and why cannot work.
nowadays i really scare of him. when i come work he will purposely block my way and talk to me "小 妹 ！ 你 来 了 ！ “ then i will ignore him and walk away. i know i very bad. but i really cant stand him! each day i go to work, i see him when i enter the store, my mood will be ruined with his greeting! my boss did tell me that he maybe out of stress that why he behave like that. i heard he holds 2 jobs and he hardly sleep more than 4 hours each day. i am still trying to understand and accept the way he is. and its is really not easy.
i shall put this worries to God. He will carry it. hahax. that goes me again, complaining about work. there is a lot more than these! i am really stupid! people slack there and wait for me to do all the work. and i really do all! do with anger some more knowing clearly that they making use of me. and i didn't even ask them to help me. very pathetic. people take break more than half an hour i take break 15mins. AHHH! STOP! must STOP complaining and be grateful with what i have.
really feel like changing job. 如 果 可 以 就 好 ！
some of my this year goals and expectation is...
to continue to move out of comfort zone and to strike conversation with people that i do not know. i want to spend more time with my families, spend time talking to them, that means my dialect have to improve! and also want to spend more time with my friends that i have neglected since last year start of school. not forgetting to spend more time with God. and to manage my time well. to move on to a higher level of growth in God. to be a channel that channel God's love to people.
and a lot more....
is not what i can do or what i want to do. but is what God wants to do.
what goals have you set this year? how are you going to achieve it? no goals? no improvement?
my church changed a new mission and is called "maximising the God-given potential". let us all work toward this mission!
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