我觉得我好像真的被骗了。被骗了。后悔？真的觉得有一点点。

even the Lab tech says that it just sound so nice. but the actual fact is not as i expected.
YES! I'm disappointed! If you know me well, you know sometimes I'm really very purpose driven. no reason for doing it and you want me to do, is really upsetting me. and he can actually tells me so clearly that what all this is for show! and i asked him to confirm what he had just said so many times. is really for show. you mean is for fun? i was expecting something more than that.
really something more than that.

and they really never tell me what i was there for, never tell me exactly what they are doing, what the main thing they want me to do and the reason behind it. till recently i found out thru the website of this place then i finally realise. so is really mainly for commercial.

i am really wrong. tot that the real reason I'm there is to help them with the research. i have just think too highly of myself. what am i to go there to help with the research? i am just an ITE student. with the knowledge i have cant do much. but i really tot that was the reason, that why i accepted your suggestion of going there. and i asked you so many times to confirm what i will be going there for. of course is not anyone fault at all. if i have know the truth, i might not say yes at the first place, if i have the freedom of choice.
will she thinks that is "serve me right" if she found out? she will surely thinks that. why i didn't heed her advice in the first place. after that she will go around and tell everyone how foolish i am or something along that line.

contentment.
the only feeling that i need to feel right now.


i really miss studying..... though it have just been 2 weeks only...