ytd when i was on my way to meet Elene, i saw this truck passing by. with this caption on it. " Jesus will take your load for you" .

i thank God that He is a God that express Himself in words. He tells us exactly how much He loves us not only by words, and also by His actions. He showed us His love by His death.
without such expressiveness, i may not fell in love with God. i may not know how much He love and accept me. i may not know that He is always around to hold me when i need it. God's love is extravagant!

i felt super terrible. too stress up by too many things. too much. and is only the second week of sch! part of me called myself to spend more time to study, another part of me call myself to find more time to work. and all the additional things!

somehow forgot that i need to relax. constantly being in a tense mode isn't very good. one of my friend asked me, why am i always very tense? why cant i relax and don't worry too much? i forgot, i didn't know. i just wanted to get things done cos i constantly think that i do not have enough time. everything need to be done quickly and fast. and that the pace. cant stop. so when 1 thing didn't goes smoothly, or extra things that need me to do that will slow down my speed, came in and corrupt my whole "system" i get very affected. how to handle. how to get it done. how to be back on track.

my focus, is always on my situation. i always asked myself, why cant i shift that focus on how God can help me out of the situation. i forgot? too overwhelm by the situation. forgot that God is there watching over me. forgot to depend on God. continuously using my own strength to do things and fix my situation.

i was at a session of poly PEG on Monday evening. the speaker talks about "a journey towards delightful satisfaction" he said that God sometime will bring us to a holy despair, a hopeless point so to fix our eyes on God. and also nothing in your life is ever wasted when you keep your eyes on God. he went on sharing that God will also bring us to a holy dissatisfaction, a holy desperation, a holy dependence, a holy desire, and a holy delight. just to narrow down our focus on God. just to narrow our focus to the only one thing that is require to be done.

thank God, for that session encouraged me. :D

psalm 46:10. be still and know that i am God.
actually also means to sink down and relax.
is time to relax and be still.