y am still i struggling with the same issue when i know exactly how to handle, what to do about it. i know clearly it will be a cycle, repeating. and i really want to break this cycle! but doubting whether i can break it with my own strength.

i cant break it just with my own strength. i definitely cant.

i believe all things that i have is given from God. be it things that pple give me, or i buy myself or even money that i have earn. i believe all things that i have comes from God.
when it is yours, it will definitely be yours. no matter how others try to steal and snatch from you, it will still be yours.
If it is not yours, no matter how hard you tried to keep it, have ownership over it, at the end of the day, you will still loose it.
So when God asked if i can give this thing to Him, shouldn't i give it freely to Him? Cos initially is from Him.
So when someone asked to give them, shouldn't i give freely too? Like how it was given to me, freely.

if it is mine, and i have less i will be given even more.
if is not mine, even if i have much, it will be taken away from me.


i have understood, and i have done what i need to do.