today is the swimming lesson that i dread . cos i really scare of going 2 that adult pool (Olympic standard k). lucky every thing turn out 2 be quite ok. never really go and swim the whole pool. i thought we definitely will not have enough time 2 bath. so i never bring any soaps 2 wash myself. but never did i expected, we have time 4 bathing. so you know what happened la..


hwei hoon was sick today and she still come 2 school(super hard working). see her expression of the discomfort really arch my hearts a bit leh. she actually can don come today de. cos only got s&w and IC theory. so wont really miss a lot of lesson. everybody seems 2 be so hard working in my class. i think I'm the only slacker that always fall asleep during LT ( everybody have their eyes fixed on poly le). stress a bit.


met up with Eeyore at night 2 chat a bit. and munch on chipster . we met nisha again(cos she live near that area that we are at.) found out that she had recently met with an accident. so she described 2 us the whole happening. ouch! that was really painful. lucky she already much better now. from the way she describe, somehow i feel that God is trying 2 do some work in her life 2 let her know of his existence. she say she was on the way back after going 2 temper. she say she got feeling that her side of her leg is painful before even the accident. poor gal.. feel a lot of compassion..


really miss her a lot. miss secondary life....


some facts are able 2 escape 4 a certain period of time. but eventually you still have 2 face it..... is this really a sad facts about this facts?

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somehow, my expectation 4 myself and others is always so high. but, there is time that i really hope that is not like that. or maybe not even holds any expectation on others. the higher the expectation, the bigger the disappointment it can actually be. so eventually i learnt my lesson after being let down by so many pple. now, i really don wan 2 holds any expectation on pple. I'm still trying my best. nobody is perfect, what do i expect??? can i just stop asking 4 too much... i should be satisfy. but sometime i just have so much confident on this or that person(cant blame myself 4 holding expectation k), that they will do this and they wont do this.but.... NOBODY IS PERFECT. human being will make mistake. if only you are not....


i knew that no matter how hard i try 2 look 4 someone that can really accompany me through out my life , i cannot find 1. even my future Mr right(till death we part), there is no human being that can actually do that. no matter how many years you have know me, there is still this 10-20% of me that you may not know. sometime i may not even know who i am? why i do this? why i behave like that? nobody understand me, not even myself.


but i know.. only He knows. He knows everything of me. even if i didn't tell him. He knows me completely from the inside out. He sees through me completely. He knows what is the reason i do and behave like this. He knows EVERYTHING!!! He who decide what my name should be. He who let me be born 2 this earth. He who fixes my fate. he who decide that i should born in this family. He who put an emptiness in me. He who ..... He who is the creator of everything.


i know surely that in Him i can find rest, i can find hope , love and joy.




好 想 好 想 看 见 他 。 。 。 就 算 一 眼 也 好 。 。 。



可 以 吗 ????

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