went 2 school for Crystal growing workshop. i tot is really only workshop. but never did i expected, we are call 2 prepare 2 grow the Crystal right away after the workshop. and that means i have 2 go school everyday from today onwards to observe the Crystal. n there goes my holidays. say bye... this is so fast k. i tot we will only be growing the crystal when school reopen. looks like i cant work in the morning during the holidays le. ( that means i cant go on work on Wednesday.) n that means lower income.. sian sian.. if only one day can be longer than 24 hours.

i saw my brother today at the bus stop while I'm waiting 4 bus 2 go school. i didn't realise is him at first. then he suddenly shouted at me. i was shocked! then realise is him. we have a short chat in the bus before he got down 4stops later.

i was really super super angry at work today. cos pearlyn is here again!! the yaya papaya area manager. really super angry with her. she once again accuse me of doing things wrongly. Grr.... but she once again didn't see the whole story and 不分青红皂白的 blame me 4 doing wrong. and i really didn't do wrong. and this is what exactly happened:

i was doing twister for standby, in case there is order from customer. i made 2 to standby. so i roll the twister up and put it in the storage container. n cover it. then continue 2 roll another twister that is left. she came and open that storage container and say i should put the storage container in the warming cabinet. is like of course i know la. don you have eyes 2 see that i am actually rolling another twister so that i can put it together in the storage container? is not i donnoe or don want 2 put the storage container in the warming cabinet. is i haven finish. and she shitty is thinking of what. this not the first time she have accuse me for things that i didn't do wrong already. the first time was the fries basket, she tot i never shake. but the problem is i already shake and she happens 2 not 2 see it. I'm really really angry. feel like telling her that can she just stop walking with her nose in the air and every time appears 2 criticize what everybody is doing, trying 2 find fault so as 2 scold us and show how powerful she is. STOP IT!!! i really donnoe what is your purpose of coming down 2 check on the store. is it just 2 pour pressure and discourage on your staff? and i think you should give us more encouragement than just 2 tell us" hey this 1 cannot like that and that 1 cannot like that.'' every time she is around, i really feel like leaving the job. cos i know whatever i do, she wont be happy with it or even appreciate it.so what is your position high. it doesn't mean success yet. we can just not cooperate and leave the job immediately. everybody in the store don like her. she really spoilt my mood till now.

I'm really INNOCENT and i wont admit that I'm wrong!!! cos I'm not wrong at all!!!

算了算了算了！！！！反正， 我真的会换工作。with this type of pple as the management team, everybody will suffer. i should just think of Jesus. how he handle similar situation when he was accuse of things that he never do. Lord, will you just put out that anger in me.




one day in the house of God is better than thousand day in the world.

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hey this " i don know" sentence is like super powerful in pushing responsibility 2 others. just this 3 words... for example if i ask you: how come you never go for this workshop yesterday? and your respond can be: cos i don know there is actually such workshop. story end. cant possibly blame someone that actually do not know; Innocent. Chinese there's this saying :不 知 者 无 罪 。 which really shows the power of " i don know" .


i always encounter this problem when pple start telling me they don know and pushing everything 2 me alone 2 settle. quite frustrating 的 . yup, and i encountered this situation early in the morning at home. i don think there is really a need 4 me 2 go into details. sometime pushing everything 2 me 2 settle is really very stressful. do you really understand how i feel? i bet they don. eventually, they are still my family. i only can keep telling myself 2 get used 2 it and accept it.


today practical is in the computer lab, do some research on 5 organisation and then we have 2 write it out on major paper and present it out(is like, not again? major paper?). honestly, is really super boring k. cos the computer is really lad and i really used 2 using the touch pad on laptop le. LOL. so used that i 4get there is mouse(ya, i went touching the table with my middle finger). this is really so funny. hahax. and i cannot manage 2 find all the information. super sianx half way. my group wrote so much and so big on the major paper that we actually used 5 major paper. cannot believe it at all. and each team that present, every group member takes turn 2 present each organisation. but my team have actually planned that 1 person holds this job fully. is this really going 2 be very weird i really don know. cos end up not enough time 2 present. so the rest of the group have 2 present next lesson.


i went rushing 2 posb bank after i reach home and have my early dinner. i know the bank actually closed at 4.30pm. and i left my house at 4.20pm. i know clearly this is really a mission impossible 4 me 2 reach in 10 mins time. but i still rush down like mad. haix. no matter how hard i tried, i didn't make it in time. when i reach, is already 4.35pm. and is closed. although there is still pple inside waiting 4 their turn but I'm not allow 2 go in. if it is not 4 that pathetic stamp that i need 4 my GIRO application i really don think i will really rush like crazy 2 the bank but end up with nothing k. i really don know when then i can get that stamp. tml they are not open and friday lesson is till 5.30pm, close by that time. Saturday got cca in the morning till 12noon. by the time it will be close again. and you know what? i need 2 hand it in on Monday. and sunday they are not open. once again the concept of able 2 split myself into half comes in again....


so i left the bank after knowing that i cant get in 2 get the pathetic stamp. went 2 met up with hui and eeyore. of coures, 4 tuition at MP. is really so cold in the classroom . and as usual, i almost fall asleep when the lesson is coming 2 the end.


tml is public holiday. what a really NICE labour day. maybe is really nice 2 some. but 4 me it is just another tiring day of working 15 hours( is double pay 4 8 hours. cant miss this opportunities especially i really seldom work now le.) and there is actually a pasa lamam at just outside the streets near my work place. so i already predict. is going 2 be super super busy tml. yup, which really pays off our double pay. sian a bit.


feel so dread 2 go 2 work tml. doing the same old thing, facing the same old problems. i recently then found out that my store area manager had changed too. cos the previous 1 found a better job with higher pay of coures. and that new AM, her name is pearlyn. haven have a chance 2 meet her in person yet. but i heard she is really super strict in procedure. super sianx k. looks like life at work isn't going any where better at all.


i don know.. i don know what 2 do... but 4 me saying "i don know"don have the powerful effect of pushing responsibility 2 others. no matter how many donkeys time i can say "i don know". it wont works that way 4 me at all. this will only brings me more pressure. cos eventually all the problems still needs me 2 handle, even if i say i don know. i cannot don know. don know also must know. and that is how pressurize sometime it gets.


still trying 2 accept.........

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thank God for every Friday that i can have every week. cos Friday is always a day that i always look forward 2. that is just so many things that i can look forward 2 when Friday comes near. Friday means going 2 school early and coming back early. Friday means weekends is coming, mark the end of the week, the end of school for this week. Friday means cg is on this evening. Friday means I'm able 2 meet my working clique the next day. Fridays means one day closer 2 Saturday and two more days closer 2 Sunday. hehex... i really loves Friday.


analytical theory have become tougher after teaching all the safety stuff. i can completely don understand the whole lesson and just sit there and think what i should do in order 2 understand what the lecturer was teaching or keep thinking when the lesson will probably ends. although only 1 lesson so far that i really do not understand(of course, just started only mah.) but now, I'm trying 2 get prepare 4 lots of lots of lesson 2 come, going through the whole lecturer without understanding 1 single thing. sooner or later introductory chemistry will just be as bad as analytical chemistry. 4 now, i only look forward in doing practical. for now only. i really donnoe what may come my way after that.


cell outing today. when 2 new york new york 2 eat with them. heard that brander was really upset cos there is no cell today. order a plate of fish and chips. and after that we separatedour way with grace, Joseph and the rest. leaving me , peici, Aaron and another guy, all heading home.


tml is going 2 be another crazy day of working 15 hours. sianx a bit. better don let it affect my mood the whole day there. hey, thankful heart.... haix.. how i hope one day can be longer than 24 hours. and how i hope human being only needs 3 hours a day of sleep. so that i can do alot of things. i got so many books that i haven read yet. i got some many stuff that i need 2 clear long ago le.


sometime i just hope that im a robot...

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school at 9.30am. but i cant imagine i actually reached school so early today. at first i tot lesson starts at 9am lorx. when i get out of my house at 7.50am. i walked half way then i realise that i forget 2 bring my MC. shitty lorz. went all the back. i think my STM is getting more serious le. how can i let this slip off my mind. so i reach school about 8.45am(still very early). i tot I'm reali early lorx. but never expect Michelle was as early as me. she reach shortly after i reach. so i was Lucky that i have her 2 pei.



first lesson was.... S&W.. sianx.. sports and wellness.. that teacher was quite funny de. but.. he wants us 2 bring swimming suit next lesson as in he wants 2 find out who know how 2 swim and who donnoe. this is... ... .... i really don wan lorx. i really donnoe how... maybe i will skip that lesson. or i said i forget 2 bring. he makes us do chin up and run round the track 4 like almost 6 rounds. sweat like so much.



and after that was IC theory class. almost late 4 class. so we ran up asap. LOL. but we are already so burn out from all the exercise le. lesson as usual: boring. although the lecturer try her best 2 make it so interesting by telling us all the "story' she once encounter with safety in lab. but i still find it quite sianx de. we don have any more lesson after that. can go home le (always the best part). i realise that i didn't really learn a lot of thing from the start of school till now. so sianx. maybe all the lesson we have didn't keep me thinking(my brain is not being use). just merely listening only. maybe that why it doesn't really seems like i learnt something new. and slowly i realise i really not so interested in science lehx. chemistry? i got no single clue about it. is my name really hard 2 remember? maybe it really is. some1 just cant remember what's my name and keeping asking me (that same person) .



i cant imagine, i actually slept almost 4 hours after i reach home k.. and i feel that my legs are arching le. didn't do running 4 so long.



i still cant manage 2 get the theme yet. what should i do. GOD!!! can u just drop something in my heart. or maybe a dream. I'm so thirsty 4 you! cant have enough of you...

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