Sunday, April 13, 2008
strife....
finally able 2 wake up late today. always have 2 force myself 2 wake up early every morning. lucky not on Sunday morning. although i didn't reali wake up veri late. jus like 9.30am.(my mum calls and ask what i like 2 have 4 breakfast and was awake by that call.) at first i tot because of that call it jus make me so awake that i cannot continue sleeping le. but i still choose 2 lie on my bed till 10am. and the next moment i know is like 10.30am already.(wake up by the noise my dad makes as he, my mum and sister came home.)ok....
went 2 sp with jero as she needs 2 get some stuff 4 her art. after that, we walk 2 church drinking bubble tea. i brought vanilla ice blended. and is like super sweet. cant stand the sweet at all. so end up throwing it away. the weather is super hot this afternoon and the ice in the bubble tea melted so fast...
CET class is like... ps Alan jus called us 2 fill up the survey form and after he prayed 4 the class and that it. i actually still looking forward in what he will going 2 teach us 4 the last lesson and the lesson notes. but.. didn't expect that i actually got none of it. still tot of going back 2 the class and asking him 4 notes after we left. still tot that next week still got CET class. but it's all over. (looking forward 4 the next CET term 2 start.)
since the class end so early, me n jero sat together and chat. but i felt a bit guilty because i left joseph alone, again. lol. but jero needs my company. (I'm sure he understand.) sometime i jus hope that i can spilt myself up into 2. not only 2 but many pieces. so that i can have enough time 2 do a lot of stuff and sparing it 2 my friends that needs my company... but is not possible. I'm not God. that can be at so many place at the same time. lol
today sermon is abdt strife. saying that the spirit of strife brings destruction 2 us.and we must resist it. strife provides an access 4 Satan 2 come in.
my life, of course, there is strife. and was reali struggling whether 2 go 2 the altar call not. struggling with pride. but..i keep telling myself that i should go. cos this altar call is 4 me, it applies 2 me. in the end i did plug up my courage 2 go. is super cold in the Audi, although i already wore a jacket, but i can still feel that my body is shivering and my knees too.
is not abdt whether is right or wrong.or whether they understand or not. but is abdt love. the love i have 4 God n the love that i should have 4 pple. jin yu.. Pls remember that... stop having strife with pple..(especially with your family.)
tml school start. and i feel so mixed feeling. heard that there is like 1 week orientation. felt sianx.i should have just spend that time studying or working k. somehow i jus feel dread 2 go 2 school. oh God, Pls help me!!!
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