do you agree? cant you image a person actually spent about one quarter of his life sleeping? imagine what i can do with all these time ??? but, 1 sad facts. we are designed in a way that we need sleep and rest. so no matter how hard i tried not sleeping, still have 2 sleep.

the kind of feeling you will get when you are lack of sleep is really a torture. my head gets so heavy and giddy and got a feeling of like stuck in something in my head . or not my eyelids will get so heavy that it cant stand 2 open 4 even 1 second long. den my whole body will be so heavy. haix... cannot help it. must sleep arhx...

if only there is something that can power us up when we eat it. and den we wont feel tired and sleepy at all le. then we can use the time 2 do stuffs that we can be more effective in any aspect of our life.

I'm really lack of time 2 do a lot of things. (including sleeping) and this lack of time and things that is going on now is really making me stress up.

mum just go 4 op.when i told her that she wont be discharge by today, she grumbler. complain 2 me that she cant sleep, is very hot, is very noisy. and call me 2 call the doctor 2 let her go home. but.. this is really something that i cant help or control arhx. what does she wants me 2 do? but after i told her is better 2 recover fully then go back then 2 come back again. so she didn't say much after that le.

my sister, complaints 2 me about her job. she cant understand why is she need 2 do all the job whereas that gal that is working together with her cant do it. why leaving it all 2 her. i really donnoe why i get my sister 2 work with me in the same place. sort of like i bring her 2 hell. cos i know clearly stress there is really unbearable. maybe she should plan of quiting this job too le.

super not enough time. now i have 2 go down 2 see and take care of mum everyday till she discharge. and then i still need 2 work. and then i need 2 study 4 my test that is coming so soon and my o level. and then i need 2 go tuition and finish the homework teacher give. and then i got cca, i got Crystal growing thingy, and then i got friends coming 2 me and ask me 2 join the same cca as them. is really makes me 一个头两个大! lucky i haven burst yet.

recently that is this part time rider at my work place(his full time job actually is a fire and rescue specialist). he is really a very nice person. so that day he asked me." how come the older you get the more moody you are?" so i answer him saying that the older i get the more responsible i got the more responsible i got, the more pressure i got. the more pressure i got, the more stress i am. the more stress i am, the more emo i get. and that why i always get so emo especially when i go 2 work. so many things 2 do, so little pay. and they(manager) don appreciate what i do. and then he said that i should try 2 get out of this stress and not let it consume me. ya i know. his right. but the problem is, the only way i know that can actually kill my stress is 2 eat. eat and eat. i haven discover other ways yet. but of course the most effective way is 2 just get me out of this stress and go far far away from this place that i live. best is to go heaven. no stress, no grief. only got joy.

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