this is what happened on Friday.......


woke up at 6.30am 2 bring my mum 2 the hospital. reach there, the nurse asked us how come we will so early. i thought we actually should be late already.cos it is stated that we should report at 7am. but we reached st 7plus near 8am. then i realise the surgery was actually pushed back. and i actually donnoe. the nurse call us 2 come back at about 11. the surgery will only be at 12pm. so my mum and i went downstairs, cos i want 2 eat breakfast. i know i actually shouldn't eat de. cos my mum is fasting 4 the surgery. aiya.. but i still end up eating. we return back 2 the ward at 9plus near 10. waited till 12pm, the nurse call us in and prepared my mum 4 the surgery. as i watch the nurse push the bed slowly 2 the op theater.. not a bit of worried at all.somehow i just feel peace inside.... so she went in about 12 plus and i went home. cos the surgery will take about 4 hours and she still have 2 stay in the recovery room 4 2 hours.


i came back 2 the hospital at 6pm with my dad. expecting her 2 be out at around 7pm. but we waited and waited, she's not out yet. my dad says that is too late 2 stay. so he went back home and called me 2 call him when my mum is out. so... i waited and waited. i watch the lift from level 2 comes up 2 level 7 and waited 4 the lift door 2 open. hoping that it was my mum that was pushed out from the lift. but is not. finally, i saw the lift's door open and the nurse pushed a bed out of the lift. it must be my mum i tot. there is 2 groups of family waiting at the waiting area too. one group stood up and see that bed that is pushed out too. and i saw another person on the bed instead of my mum. my heart sink real deep down. disappointed...


and is 8plus already. so i went 2 the nurse again and asked her when my mum will be out. and she said she will only be out at 9plus. so that means i have 2 wait 4 another hour. i stood at the waiting area. the two family that each consist about 10 members occupied all the seats in the waiting area. seeing one of the family chit chatting happily. how i hope there is also a group of pple with me, waiting 4 my mum 2 be out. but actually you know what, these two group of family, the family member that they are waiting for are already out from the recovery room. i really donnoe why they are waiting 4 what? maybe waiting 4 the doctor 2 come.(but it is really going 2 be very late the doctor then will come, heard the nurse said). so they were will like having their own gathering there. and i, really really feel very lonely. how i hope at least someone could call me and talk 2 me but i receive zero phone calls. i started 2 worried why my mum actually took so long 2 come out. but i really cant do anything. i cant focus 2 read the book that i brought alone with me. and then about 9plus, 1group of the family left, and finally can sit down(yeah).


finally at 10pm, she's out. saw the nurse slowly pushed the bed out from the lift 2 the high dependency unit. after the nurse had settle her down and i finally can see her!!! saw her stitches on her neck down 2 her shoulder, my heart arches. i really cant bear 2 see her bearing that pain. tears sting my eyes, i blinked it away in case she get more worried. feel so mush 2 comfort her form her pain. but i know words wont worked much( esp. when i really not good in hokkien). stayed with her 4 about half an hour, comforting her that she will be out of the hospital soon on Monday and the next week the stitches will be removed. is getting quite late. so i left her 2 rest.feel so much 2 cry. but it is just stuck in my throat, cant swallow it down too. lucky my journey back home have hui and eeyore on the phone with me. or not i think i will be.......... you know what bah.. don need me 2 mention.......


thank God the surgery was a success. thank God 4 my mum's life. thank God...

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