i found out another way of getting rid of stress and worries le. is 2 laugh. but not like really laugh 4 no reason. but laugh becos is funny. i think by laughing can temporarily take me away from stress. at least 4 awhile. hahax. now then i realise.

this week is the beginning of the first week of holiday. but how come i can feel that is going 2 school open so soon n fast even on the first day of holiday? oh no, stress is coming back. (that fast) anyway, this holiday definitely is not meant 4 all the fun. cos i really have 2 make full use of this holiday 2 study and work.

Monday, went 2 work .

Tuesday, went out with friends.

Wednesday, took my mum 2 see doctor. i cant believe we actually waited almost 2 hour 4 our turn. and then we went in 2 see the doctor also like 15mins then came out 了。 but thank God, my mum blood test result was good that she only will be coming back 2 see this doctor in 4 months time. the doctor say my mum have 2 do some neck exercise everyday n order not 2 result in very stiff neck. but the problem is she wont do the exercise if i don do with her. i hope i can find some time everyday 2 do this exercise with her . and i need 2 check on her everyday whether she got eat her medicine. most of the time i check on her she will say she haven eat or later she will eat. this really worries me. what if some unexpected things happen? I'm really not prepare 4 it. if only mummy's thinking can change a bit(at least a bit) then i will be more 放心. she have do blood test 1 week before 4 all her appointment she have. looks like more and more lesson I'm going 2 missed(how 2 catch up?) when school reopens. and you know i have very serious stm. i really scare i will forget those dates of appointment and blood test. i already forget once. end up we already paid 4 the blood test but never go. there is this appointment must go in order 2 collect medicine. i forget too. oh no. getting so old. the doctor say my mum have 2 drink milk or eat food that contains calcium that she will be needing. and i really hopes i can remember 2 buy 4 her.

我看起来好像不在乎，但是其实不是你想像的那样。
and then is tuition at night. i haven pay my tuition fees yet. hoping that God will provide.

Thursday, went 2 work.

Friday, went 2 funan IT hall with Michelle 2 take the guitar course. the teacher keep having that mindset that we take up guitar course is 2 impress pple. feel a bit disturbed. he seems 2 like 2 mumble 2 himself. cos he don speak very clearly. so was like some part don catch what he wants 2 say. Michelle think agrees with me too. i think the lesson is super short lorx. feels so much 2 have a longer session. but overall, i think is quite ok. cos is something new that i never tried before. although i think play violin is more fun. went 2 meet marilyn at tecman 2 pick present 4 grace after lesson. is her birthday. there is this pass on card that usual price is 50cents each. but then at this session of tecman it actually sell 15pcs 4 1 dollar only! wow, so we both brought 30pcs each. and then we left 4 cell group. cant believe that they actually wrap the present up with newspaper. cos is super funny. we ordered pizza. i already forget when is the last time i eat pizza. is really been quite sometime.

today, morning went swimming with lexandra. after that went 4 fish4 men. i was really so sleepy, i dozed off actually. although i really try my best 2 keep myself awake. i drank a lot of water. but no use. i think caijie saw me dozing off. feel really really guilty. the lesson is not boring. I'm just too tired. feel so guilty. went 2 work at 4pm. wa... is really super busy today. i think everyday also. due 2 lack of manpower. i made so many twister non stop and burgers. really super exhausted. feel like my back is going 2 break anytime. really every time got this feeling.

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