Sunday, June 15, 2008
not again: that feeling
i had quit archery. cos i wanted 2 fully commit my Saturday morning 2 fish4men. although i want so much 2 continue staying in archery, cos they say they going 2 form a girls team as they do not have a girls team at the moment. but how? i don know 分身术. so i decided 2 give up archery. anyway, i only have 1 life and it will soon be gone, and only what done for Christ will last. and 1 thing that you cannot do in heaven is evangelism cos everyone up there is already saved.so i went 2 fish4men today. get a chance 2 know this sister. she is very nice and open 2 me. she said she was very encouraged by me, cos i was saved through fish4men. actually when i recall back of what had happened in my life, i actually found God sending his messager 2 me even before i got saved, even at very very young age. I'm just waiting for someone 2 tell me who this God really is. and yup, the time have come when someone witnessed 2 me. my heart is ready and open for the good news. i will never ever forget i was once lost and now found.
the love God have for us, cannot be silence. we must proclaim it. how can it be silence? is too great that it cannot be silence. same as the love you may have 4 someone else other than God. how can you remain silence and not try all ways 2 let the person know the love you have for him/her. typical human being will always have the mindset of wanting something in return.
is what you are living for worth dying for? think about this question. what is driving your life at this point of your life? is it all those material stuff? or an approval from someone? or other not so important thing.
went 2 work at 4pm. really don feel like working. always feel like quiting this job. is like almost 1 week i have not been working. saw some changes in the store. the office got some rearrangement of some stuff and got a new long mirror on the wall. feels like a bed room. the sink area also have new stuff. a rack is fixed beside the sink 2 put all the containers.
i do kitchen with 1 sp staff today. super busy due 2 new promo, toasted twister. i tasted it. i think is like super normal, nothing so special at all. wonder why still got so many pple buying it and eat.
worked in this job 4 3yrs. and super sianx le. still have 2 holds on till the end of this year before i can change job. maybe i should just step out in faith that God will provide me with another better job. or maybe i should just pray that God can give me a renew passion 4 this job. i really so sick of it. but if recall the time that i have spend there, really will feel a bit unbearable 2 part. days when i can get so angry that i can give attitude the whole day. days when I'm so tired from working full shift everyday that i can just lie on the floor 2 sleep first thing when i reach home. days when i just start 2 learn how 2 do cashier that i can sleep talk saying" crispy or original?". but all are the past. cant bring them back anymore. i need 2 move on 2 greater and bigger things.
tomorrow is fathers' day. have you planned 2 do something special for your father? just want 2 wish all fathers out there a happy fathers' day!
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