this 2 weeks, is as usual. very busy. maybe more busy then usual. in this 2 weeks, got 2 test. how was it? not very good. somehow feel like had just been knocked down by cars. yes, that's how broken i am towards that 2 test. who to blame? myself? i cant explain why that happened. but only He knows why. or maybe He had already revealed to me the answer to this question. maybe that answer that i had now in mind is really that reason and I'm conscious of it. but what kind changes should i make? but on top of all this is the discipline that i need to have to continue with what i had started to do. but i know for sure that He will help me finish what He had started.



was feeling very dread to go to work again. cos exams are so near and i really want to spend time studying. but still have to work. so was very dread. the first thing my manager told me when i just reach work yesterday was " tomorrow is my last day here." " why so sudden?" " no, is not. i tot i told you before?" " oh, i tot is not successful?" "...." i know what she means. she never did try to give up on that plan even it is not successful at first. and finally, it got approved. should i be happy for her? as she finally gets what she wants? and successfully escaped from this workplace and into another new environment. she always said that this store is really very messy and stressful. that the reason why she wanted to transfer out to another store. i am surely going to miss her. miss the way she always called me crazy. miss the way she always said nasty things but doesn't really mean what she said. miss the way she will come to me and tell me what she recently encounter..... i will definitely miss her presence.

one manager goes off another come in. heard that the new manager is a formal rider that last time work in our store. i really hope we can get along well. yes, i believe it can be done.

it was Danny's shift yesterday.
Danny: "I'm still chasing your 2 star position for you."
me: "oh, i see."
Danny: "you know what is happening?"
me: "what?"
Danny: "you took your 2 star test before you got your 1 star."
sounds like the HQ doesn't approve it.
Danny: " I'm chasing it for you. anyway is 2006 matter. and after you got your 2 star already then i will adjust your pay."
me: "oh ok."

feel like telling him not to put hope on me. cos I'm leaving this work soon. am i going to get a pay rise soon? does that mean More responsibility? i hope not. i got enough of it.



that was my first prayer walk. never do it before. caijie was drawing the rough sketch of the map of aljiunied on the white board. some started laughing and some wonder what are the short form stand for. and one of the short form was "PC" so i told peici." PC stands for peici." after caijie finished his master piece, he explained his map. there are 2 way we can go. most of them cannot understand the route 2. peici and i was put in route 1 plus the rest, total 6 of us.
caijie: "xiao ming, which route do you want?"
xiao ming: "anything."
caijie: "anything means no road." laugh " so which route do you want?"
xiao ming: "anything."
caijie: "ok, then you join route 1"

fish 4 men first prayer walk since it is officially launched. i really thank God for this prayer walk. if not for this walk, i may not realise how our community was so lost. we went pass Chinese temple, Hindu temple, Taoism society, Chinese museums. one of the chinese museum is really scary. we stopped and pray as we walk pass. i really see alot of things through this prayer walk. Thank God.



guitar lesson is getting more fun. i think. cos now is the period of getting familiar with the chords fingering. looking forward to get familiar.



i sat down, suddenly notice that the person sitting in front of me looks so familiar. is it him? i wonder. are you sure is him? they look so alike. although is back view. his hair. and his shirt. immediately fear gripped my heart. i know at once which bus stop he will get down. i prayed that he wont see me when he get up to get down the bus... finally, the bus stop. my head was bow low. pretending to type message. he got down the bus and the bus leave the stop. i look up and saw the empty seat. i looked out of the window to see whether is it really him. it is. is him. is really him. thank God, his gone. i really don want to see him again. although i know is impossible as we lived so near to each other. is not that i have not forgive him, is that i feel so disgusted by his look, i can never directly face him anymore, that person is full of lies.




God..... please teach me and show me how to continue to love certain people in my life. give me the compassion that you have.


forever God is faithful. forever God is strong. forever God is with us. forever and ever, forever.


tomorrow is my o level oral. fear is now in my heart. take them away!!! i want to live a life of faith not a life of fear. i want to expect more. as God is bigger than my problems and worries. God is big enough to give all that i need!

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